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是逞強或堅強...

2011-11-02T12:12:00.003+08:00

"記得和你看著雨心裡反覆說著愛你
卻安靜地配合你理想的距離" [太透明]

"人世間她愛着他又不能愛他是誰決定的想法
阻擋我和你兩情相隔誰的一句話我們拼命掙扎" [一九二四]

属灵生日快乐~

2011-06-12T01:16:00.002+08:00

Psalm 73:21-26

New International Version (NIV)

²¹ When my heart was grieved
and my spirit embittered,
²² I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.

²³ Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
²⁴ You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
²⁵ Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
²⁶ My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

For Good (from Wicked musical)

2011-05-13T02:21:00.000+08:00

ELPHABA
I'm limited:
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you -
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
(spoken) For both of us
(sung) Now it's up to you:

GLINDA
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

ELPHABA
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:

GLINDA
Because I knew you:

BOTHI have been changed for good

ELPHABA
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for

GLINDA
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

BOTH
And none of it seems to matter anymore

GLINDA ELPHABA
Like a comet pulled Like a ship blown
From orbit as it Off it's mooring
Passes a sun, like By a wind off the
A stream that meets Sea, like a seed
A boulder, half-way Dropped by a
Through the wood Bird in the wood

BOTH
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better?

GLINDA
And because I knew you:
ELPHABA
Because I knew you:

BOTH
Because I knew you:
I have been changed for good.

感触...

2011-04-15T00:01:00.003+08:00

“...原来我从未习惯你已不在我身旁~”

Trusting You...

Corrinne May - Everything in Its Time

2010-11-01T16:29:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed?
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

'cause the river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like Your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see
Ohh

There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

'Cause the river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign ohh
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

慌...

2010-10-17T01:26:00.002+08:00

"...手機裡的照片不刪除掉怕看懂的人會知道
不停思考
那年你我的祈禱今天你我的禮貌
一幕幕就像朋友沒有永遠要好
我們從不求回報回不去又逃不掉
就讓我死掉..." [回忆，这东西]

Something Inspiring with what Blender can do...

2010-10-04T15:13:00.001+08:00

One of my Blender Modeling Learning progress...

2010-09-30T14:45:00.001+08:00

Random post...

2010-09-23T00:02:00.004+08:00

Bits & pieces of lyrics of recent songs i am listening to....

回忆这个东西，显得很奇妙 越想忘记，越难忘掉 部落格上写了又删除掉 怕看懂的人不礼貌

《回忆，这东西》

只要你願相信
雨後就會天晴
讓我帶你去看一看
遠方的美景

《只要你相信》

我剩下现在了　我现在清楚了
我决定不再逃避生命给我最真的
爱不是为了恨　爱原来是承认
花不必苦等春天只需要赏花的人

《我終於看到》

告訴我該怎麼做
愛怎麼會錯
為什麼釋放我又束縛我
向著幸福走
要甩掉所有
我的他我的家我的憂

《我該怎麼做》

身边人影左右退进
所有声音渐渐停息
天地之大我的眼眸中只有她
有没有人懂我
心中也有一朵送不出去的花

《请你告诉他》

小動作大感动很不錯給了我最溫馨的傑作
小動作小線索你是沙漠用心去探索寶藏特別多
幸福的收穫就藏在生活的每個角落

《小动作》

人世間她愛着他又不能愛他是誰決定的想法
阻擋我和你兩情相隔誰的一句話我們拼命掙扎
無論再多風沙待塵埃落下誰說我們愛得浮誇
直到時間溶化命運無法再使詐
當愛蛻成一幅畫

《一九二四》

如果大海能够带走我的哀愁

就像带走每条河流

所有受过的伤

所有流过的泪

我的爱

请全部带走

《大海》

 你的笑 你的好 脑海里 一直在绕   我的手 忘不了 你手的温度   心碎了一地 捡不回从前的心跳 伤心过去我无力逃跑   说再见 才发现再也见不到   能不能就这样忍著痛泪不掉   说好陪我到老 又狠往哪里走   再次拥抱一分一秒都好

《说了再见》

"4 愛 是 恆 久 忍 耐 ， 又 有 恩 慈 ； 愛 是 不 嫉 妒 ； 愛 是 不 自 誇 ， 不 張 狂 ，

⁵ 不做害羞的事，不求自己的益處，不輕易發怒，不計算人的惡，

⁶ 不喜歡不義，只喜歡真理；

⁷ 凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。"

[歌林多前書 13:4-7]

Introducing the new upcoming local singer group "插班生 The Freshman"!!!

2010-08-20T12:06:00.003+08:00

Do support the upcoming local singer group <插班生 The Freshman> by visiting to their website

http://www.thefreshman.com.sg/

And do support their debut album when it's released on 9th September!!

请多多支持，谢谢！=)

Something about you by Corrinne May...

2010-06-28T13:01:00.000+08:00

Dont what you do to me but
Everytime I'm with you its a natural high
its like re-discovering Eden
with chocolate-coated rainbows and cotton candy skies
And everytime you look my way
I wish i had the guts to say

There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.

I think i'll hire Cupid
He'll make you see I'm more than your friend
You'll be tossing and turning
Counting the hours til you see me again
And when we meet you'll
Kiss my hand and say the words I've longed to hear

There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
I'm falling in love with you
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.

It's the 5th...

2010-06-12T00:00:00.002+08:00

生日快乐...

It has been a long journey, and a lot more to go...

Thank you God...

Ecclesiastes 2:1-11 (FAV - Facebook Applications Version)

2010-02-23T01:34:00.002+08:00

Pleasures Are Meaningless

I thought in my heart, "Come now, I will test you with facebook applications to find out what is good." But that also proved to be meaningless. "Laughter," I said, "is foolish." And what does pleasure accomplish?" I tried cheering myself with SuperPoke!, and embracing Daily Horoscope—my mind still guiding me with wisdom. I wanted to see what was worthwile for men to do inside Facebook during the few hours in a day.

I installed popular applications: I built Cafe World for myself and planted FarmVille. I made Garden World and Parking Wars and invented MindJolt Games in them. I made neighbour features to entertain crowds of active users. I bought male and female pets from Pet Society and had other animals who were born in PetVille & Zoo World. I also owned more fishes in Fishville and rollercoaster rides in Rollar Coaster Kingdom than anyone in the friends list before me. I amassed silver and gold for myself in Texas Hold'Em Poker, and the treasure of kings and provinces in Three Kingdoms Online. I acquired men and women gangsters in Mafia Wars, and an Are YOU Interested application—the delights of the heart of man. I became greater by far than anyone for Challenge Sudoku in the friends list before me. In all this my wisdom stayed with me.

I denied myself nothing my friends sent;
I refused my heart no gift requests.
My heart took delight in all my character levels,
and this was the reward for all my long hours in Facebook.

Yet when I surveyed all that my hand had clicked
and what I had stayed online to achieve,
everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind;
nothing was gained under the sun.

(Composed by myself to share with people to have a laugh & reflect the time we spent in Facebook... Adapted from the NIV Bible)

Cool stuff...

2009-12-19T17:06:00.000+08:00

祝我生日快乐...

2009-12-17T00:15:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to myself...

Thanking God for the year 2009!

Quick post....

2009-11-10T23:17:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... Issit time to revive this blog?

Perhaps I will try to make my own blog skin too...

Stay tune ba... (doubt anyone is visiting this blog anyway... )

Thank you Lord...

2009-06-02T02:57:00.000+08:00

It has been a month.... Yes!

Keep on going...

Worship...

2009-04-25T02:07:00.003+08:00

[Extract from Ravi's podcast 'Worship - A Clue to Meaning In Life']

Definition of Worship by Archbishop William Temple:
"WORSHIP is the submission of all of our nature to God.
It's the quickening of conscience by His holiness,
nourishment of mind by His truth,
purifying of imagination by His beauty,
opening of the heart to His love,
submission of will to His purpose.
All these gather up in adoration... is the greatest expression of which we are capable."

^{-> Unity in Diversity: Finding worship to binds the Diversity of the inclination of your heart.}

² "I have loved you," says the LORD.
"But you ask, 'How have you loved us? [Malachi 1:2]

-> We cannot worship without EMOTION.

⁶ "A son honors his father, and a servant his master. If I am a father, where is the honor due me? If I am a master, where is the respect due me?" says the LORD Almighty. "It is you, O priests, who show contempt for my name.
"But you ask, 'How have we shown contempt for your name?' [Malachi 1:6]

-> We cannot worship without REVERENCE.

⁷ "You place defiled food on my altar.
"But you ask, 'How have we defiled you?'
"By saying that the LORD's table is contemptible. ⁸ When you bring blind animals for sacrifice, is that not wrong? When you sacrifice crippled or diseased animals, is that not wrong? Try offering them to your governor! Would he be pleased with you? Would he accept you?" says the LORD Almighty. [Malachi 1:7]

-> We cannot worship without SACRIFICE.

¹⁰ "Oh, that one of you would shut the temple doors, so that you would not light useless fires on my altar! I am not pleased with you," says the LORD Almighty, "and I will accept no offering from your hands. [Malachi 1:10]

-> We cannot worship without PURITY OF MOTIVE.

¹² "But you profane it by saying of the Lord's table, 'It is defiled,' and of its food, 'It is contemptible.' ¹³ And you say, 'What a burden!' and you sniff at it contemptuously," says the LORD Almighty. [Malachi 1:12]

-> "If you do not know how to worship God in spirit and in truth..... even God will disappoint you... because you will end up using Him... you will end up not really coming on His terms..." said Ravi.

Love...

2009-04-25T00:57:00.003+08:00

"Without the emotions, love is a treachery..."
"But Without the will (to commit), it is a mockery..." -Ravi-

"What can I do with you, Ephraim?
What can I do with you, Judah?
Your love is like the morning mist,
like the early dew that disappears." [Hosea 6:4]

Thank you God for your love, though I don't deserve it...

Can you spot the difference?

2009-04-11T12:57:00.003+08:00

"When an evil spirit comes out of a man, it goes through arid places seeking rest and does not find it. Then it says, 'I will return to the house I left.' When it arrives, it finds the house swept clean and put in order. Then it goes and takes seven other spirits more wicked than itself, and they go in and live there. And the final condition of that man is worse than the first." [Luke 11:24-26]

"When an evil spirit comes out of a man, it goes through arid places seeking rest and does not find it. Then it says, 'I will return to the house I left.' When it arrives, it finds the house unoccupied, swept clean and put in order. Then it goes and takes with it seven other spirits more wicked than itself, and they go in and live there. And the final condition of that man is worse than the first. That is how it will be with this wicked generation." [Matthew 12:43-45]

That difference marks the key to understand this parable...

"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." [John 15:5]

As Jesus was saying these things, a woman in the crowd called out, “Blessed is the mother who gave you birth and nursed you.”
He replied, “Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and obey it.” [Luke 11:27-28]

My Machinima! =)

2009-03-11T14:26:00.000+08:00

This blog is not yet abandoned...

2009-02-11T00:15:00.002+08:00

It's just not being updated regularly... =)

Till the next post which I share more about my life...

(Can check more relevant updates in my Facebook status)

Try the demo... Helping my friend to play-test...

2008-11-27T14:47:00.002+08:00

http://www.nocturnal-central.com/flowerworks/

Jeremiah 17:9-10 (New International Version)

2008-11-25T12:29:00.000+08:00

9 The heart is deceitful above all things
and beyond cure.
Who can understand it?

10 "I the LORD search the heart
and examine the mind,
to reward a man according to his conduct,
according to what his deeds deserve."

以弗所書 6:13-18

2008-11-09T03:17:00.000+08:00

13 所以，要拿起神所賜的全副軍裝，好在磨難的日子抵擋仇敵，並且成就了一切，還能站立得住。

14 所以要站穩了，用真理當作帶子束腰，用公義當作護心鏡遮胸，

15 又用平安的福音當作預備走路的鞋穿在腳上。

16 此外，又拿著信德當作籐牌，可以滅盡那惡者一切的火箭；

17 並戴上救恩的頭盔，拿著聖靈的寶劍，就是神的道；

18 靠著聖靈，隨時多方禱告祈求；並要在此儆醒不倦，為眾聖徒祈求，

2 months without updates....

2008-10-28T00:22:00.003+08:00

I know busy will not be a valid excuse to leave this blog dying for almost 2 months...

My apologies to all who check my blog once awhile and find it not updated! Sorry...

I guess apart from being busy on the outside.. (rushing project, clearing assignment, meeting people, etc..) One main reason is I began to take more time out to do self-reflection as well as talking to God, i.e. 'blogging' in my real spiritual journal book... which is always a good practice to record down the experiences with God, be it up or down time...

I dare not say I have grown a lot over this short 2 months, but I really thank God for all the new insights & changes that He is doing within me. (Yes, I can feel the difference... and see the fruits...)

Coming to last 3 weeks of the semester, many deadlines & stuff are going to clash down like dunno what... But I want to go through all these together with God! Cos He is our ultimate refuge & strength, the only Hope that we have! Thank God once again... =)

Now this is what the LORD Almighty says: "Give careful thought to your ways. You have planted much, but have harvested little. You eat, but never have enough. You drink, but never have your fill. You put on clothes, but are not warm. You earn wages, only to put them in a purse with holes in it." [Haggai 1:5-6]

Something that I have been meditating recently from an audio sermon:

God loves you the way you are. But He loves you SO MUCH that He doesn't want to leave you just like this! He wants to make you even better, IF... only you are willing to cooperate & allow Him to do so.

I want to experience more & more breakthroughs in my life, no doubt it will mean a lot of challenges & discomfort ahead, but I also tasted the goodness of God as a result of that & it just makes me yearn for more! To "take Christ's yoke" and partner with Him is such a exciting journey, and indeed a life-transforming one! Praise the Lord...

God, help me to persevere... With your Spirit, I know I can... Amen! =)

From Ravi Zacharias's website...

2008-08-28T14:56:00.002+08:00

New insights of Psalm 23.... So Cool!

“The Lord is my shepherd”: that’s relationship.

“I shall not want”: that’s supply.

“He makes me to lie down in green pastures”: that’s rest.

“He leads me beside still waters”: that’s refreshment.

“He restores my soul”: that’s healing.

“He guides me in the paths of righteousness”: that’s guidance.

“For his name’s sake”: that’s purpose.

“Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death”: that’s testing.

“I will fear no evil”: that’s protection.

“For you are with me”: that’s faithfulness.

“Your rod and your staff, they comfort me”: that’s discipline.

“You prepare a table for me in the presence of my enemies”: that’s hope.

“You anoint my head with oil”: that’s consecration.

“My cup overflows”: that’s abundance.

“Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life”: that’s blessing.

“And I will dwell in the house of the Lord”: that’s security.

“Forever”: that’s eternity.

(Taken from here.)

Semester 7...

2008-08-26T14:08:00.005+08:00

It has been the 3rd week since sch reopen...

Below are the finalised modules I taking this sem:

CS3342 - Interactive Media Development Project (8MC)
This is a compulsory module, and heavy workload consider its MC... But pray that the project will be fun and decent at the end. New project mates... =)

CS3343 - Digital Media Production
This is a new CS module offered this sem, hence I am the 'pioneer' batch to be tested (or simply guinea pig). I taking it as an UE cos it seems interesting and something I will be comfortable with... (Afterall, it's just MM.. Haha!) Wish to score well for this. =)

CS4243 - Computer Vision & Pattern Recognition
One of the level 4000 modules I choose to fulfill my degree requirements.. Looks scary for the content, but thank God the lecturer seems to be nice & friendly, hence so far it has been okay... Really hope that the maths part will be just a small part like what he claims... =p

CS5246 - Text Processing on the Web
One of the alternative level 4000 modules I was offered after failing to get my NM module.. This one will be really challenging for me as it's a graduate module & I didn't really meet the prerequite. But fortunately I was taught by the lecturer before for my AI module, which I am okay with his style of teaching. So pray that I can survive this module in the end... (Praying hard for this...)

This sem is definitely going to be overall challenging for myself, considering I need to balance the time between my studies & ministry, taking care of people while making sure that I myself is still well & alive...

Praying for More of Him, Less of me...

I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. [John12:24-25]

Praying for strength & wisdom to persevere in the things I want to do for Him...

Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. [James1:12]

For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. 8For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. [2Peter1:5-8]

Thank God for His grace & mercy once again... for He is worthy... Amen!

Random thoughts...

2008-08-25T15:36:00.000+08:00

I was having a very long & detailed dream of myself having an adventure... It was like watching a movie with myself starring in it... I still remembered in my dream, I am conscious of myself dreaming and telling myself, the whole process will make a very great movie one day! And I wish to note it down when I wake up in case I forgot...

And guess what, at the last part of my dream... I dreamt that i woke up and wrote down the script and story plot...

But when I really wake up from my dream, I can't recall a single detail during the dream, except the intense feelings and emotions I went through! =(

Seriously, this is the 1st time i encounter such dream, whereby I really full of anticipation of what's to come next in the dream, and yet it's not random and crazy stuff...

Unsettled Mind...

2008-08-13T01:38:00.003+08:00

Jesus replied, "You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand." [John13:7]

Help me understand Lord...

Timely encouragement...

2008-08-10T01:37:00.000+08:00

God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble. [Psalm46:1]

How timely is God's Word... Just when I was too bothered with the many things that I needed to do, I came across this verse... How comforting to know that God's always there for us to seek refuge and help!

I wanna learn to rely more on You Lord... because apart from You, i can do nothing...

Listening to Your still small voice......

More movie reviews...

2008-08-08T02:07:00.000+08:00

亲切的金子: 李英爱 is good, no doubt about it... But the movie itself is really too abstract for me to appreciate... Remind me of movies made by 王家卫... No offend, but the artistic level is just too high for me... Can someone really 'pretend' to be good for 16 years just to take revenge after that? But I do like the scene when she said about prison being the ideal place for people to acknowledge that they are sinners and need to accept God's grace and mercy... =)

Next: Interesting movie... Always like the sci-fi concept of time-travel/futuristic stuff... Wanted to see if there's any convincing explanation attempted to make the whole theory work... Enjoy Nicholas Cage's performance (though his character is very very similar to the one in National Treasure!) Can say that the ending maybe crappy for some, but I personally is satisfied by it... cos it just proved that one's never can see its definite future...

The Hottie & The Nottie: (Seems like I really run out of possible movies to rent to get such movie to watch...) But surprisingly, it turns up not as bad as I expected... Rather, it did share some truth about relationships.... So still glad that I watched it. (Btw, Christine Lakin who acts as the 'Nottie' is really beautiful in person!)

Jumper: Despite average comments for the movie, I still decide to see it for myself.. reason mentioned earlier... I generally interested in sci-fi movies... So conclusion-average indeed... but I do like the scenes of going from places all around the world, looks cool with the visual effects too, appreciated their effort in making it as realistically-convincing as possible.

The Mummy 3: Watched in at AMK Hub with YZ... Personally, enjoyed the show cos didn't go in with much expectation... And Jet Li did well, think he really can play baddie role with yet charisma, especially as a king speaking to his army... impressive... And Michelle Yeoh's mandarin still sounds funny... reminds me of 卧虎藏龙 again... LOL...

"师兄,你得道了?"
"没有...我没有这种感觉..."
HAHAHAHA....

Philippians 3:12-16...

2008-07-29T03:48:00.003+08:00

"Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

All of us who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you. Only let us live up to what we have already attained."

How true... Thank you Lord...

More movie reviews... (brief comments)

2008-07-18T14:24:00.002+08:00

Hancock: Hmmm... Will Smith is ok, just that the plot is not convincing enough, ending quite abrupt too... But for the unusual superhero concept, that's quite interesting... Can be better though... =)

Hancock: "Do I have the permission to touch your body?"
(HAHAHA...)

Red Cliff: Well, not a hardcore ROTK fan, so don't really know the original characters & storyline, except those famous ones... Admit it's tough to make a movie from such a strong well-known story that already stay firm in the heart of people... Personal feel of the movie is it's too draggy, yawned quite a few times during the show... It's ok to have suspense and silence if the moment is necessary, but it's a different thing to be draggy and disrupt the momentum of the show... Well, I guess I'll still watch part 2 next year to see the fire burning... =)

逾﹕"你也懂陣法?"
亮﹕"略懂..."
(HAHAHA...)

Step Up 2 The Streets: Rent it to watch. Didn't watch part 1, so just wanna see how's the story and dance actions... I enjoyed the show, though my expectation hasn't been met. I thought the show will boost my interest in learning dancing... haha... this show didn't achieve that... But always like the concept of a team forming by unique individuals where each has own different 'attributes' to add color to the team... =)

Jenny: "I like your teeth."
Smiles: "Thanks, I like your accent."
Jenny: "What accent?"
(HAHAHA...)

Vantage Point: Recommended by a few people, so decided to rent it to watch... Indeed, a very interesting way of telling a story... I love how the story slowly unfold and engage the audience to follow through with excitement & questions in mind to seek answers... A very creative way of movie-making! And appreciate the movie more after watching the dvd bonus of the making of the movie... The actors were all good, though they are not superstars... Learnt about the truth of Point of View (POV) differs from everyone, even if it's the same event. (Suddenly link the things i learnt in Reason & Persuasion! Haha.. perception of table in our mind? see the link?)

"This is a wonderous day. Today, we make history!"

New Post... (Finally..)

2008-07-09T15:27:00.005+08:00

Ok... Finally managed to force myself down in front of my computer to post a blog entry... Realising my blog seems to be dying soon... Now that it has been quite some time from my last post, I also not sure what to share up here...

Perhaps listing down some of my thanksgiving points to God for the things that happened recently...

1. Thank God for His healing
- Been coughing and ill since 3 weeks ago... Thank God for the fast recovery and rest after the ActsCalibre camp, that I regain my voice and end my non-stop coughing syndrome... (which makes me just wanna sing P&W and KTV again! LOL)

2. Thank God for His providence
- Been starting to work at Mind Cafe, it has been a good experience so far, with the friendly crew and fun-loving customers... Special thanks to Minghua & Alvin for their guidance during my 1st day of work... Promised God that I'll really give my best in the job to be a testimony for Him!

3. Thank God for His promise
- Came in as a stunning news when I got the sms from my brother that my father received Christ after attending his church's Sunday service! It was an long-awaited prayer answered! Indeed God is faithful and nothing is impossible for Him... Amen? =)

4. Thank God for His presence
- Specifically for the GenACTS events all these while, can really see how God has helped the committee in planning and executing the events... It is great to see how the freshmen have enjoyed the experiences and the new friendships we build over them. God work miraculously in our midst!

5. Thank God for His encouragement & challenge
- Recently have been trying to get my head down to receive direction from God, especially with all the upcoming responsibilities and things I need to take up to lead my group... Thank God for His Word and people around that encourage me... Thank God for my shepherd and leaders... I wanna respond positively to the challenges, be it new roles or deeper commitment in ministry... (More of Him, less of me...)

Currently, i am reading on a interesting book i bought from MPH a month ago...

After reading the 1st 2 chapters, i began to reflect upon those times which I sense God speaking to me... And I realised that I am very sensitive to it through media... specifically like movies... I can always manage to receive a rayma moment from a movie/tv that speak to me, no matter that's the main theme of the movie or not... And i enjoyed them, not just because the movie is enjoyable, but I know that's a special way that God uses to speak to me... =)

Below are 3 movies i rent to watch last week... I watched all back-to-back, with only a few hours sleep in between the last 2... Not often can you have the luxury to have movie marathon, so must treasure it b4 sch reopen soon...

Dan in Real Life: I love the show... It was one i missed in cinema... Can really feel for the main character Dan in the story and the internal struggles he is feeling.. (trying to imagine something similar happening to me, i won't know how to deal with it either...) A good recommendation for those who like family-themed show, with a unusual romance theme...

Jesus Camp: This is often a documentary film I wanted to catch in PictureHouse previously... Always seeking documentaries like this that talks about Christians' belief... It is inspiring of course, no doubt about it... For non-Christians, this is also a good one to understand more on Christianity...

Be Kind Rewind: Another show i missed in cinema, 2 attracting factors for me to go for it, Jack Black and spoofing of movies! This film really reminds me how fun it is to make your own movies, even with simple technology and 'props'... haha... (oh... i miss my N70 phone again...) A bonus of unexpected heart-warming ending... another plus point for the movie...

Oh ya, and I have to declare my new favourite animation film to date is Kungfu Panda!!! This film is beyond awesome... The animation is great, but it won't be that enjoyable and fascinating if the script is just average... I simply love the script, yet another inspiring movie for me to wanna make movies like this in future... Well done Dreamworks! ( I have watched it twice in cinema btw... Haha) Waiting for its DVD liao... =p

I got a part-time job! (Finally!)

2008-06-14T01:16:00.003+08:00

Who say Friday the 13th is an unlucky day?

I got my 1st official part-time job at Mind Cafe today after interview in the afternoon!

Thank God for His providence! Pray that I will be able to do a great job and manage my time well...

Still haven updated previous events' stuff... Paiseh ah... =p

To find out more about The Mind Cafe, can visit here. =)

Sorry for no updates...

2008-06-07T01:44:00.003+08:00

Been rather busy & 'slack' since after exams... Thus didn't blog about anything so far... ('cos when u busy u got no time to blog, when u slack u won't purposely find time to blog...)

Paiseh for those who still visit here once awhile to check for new entries... =p

I shall post some entries soon to update what has happened for past 1 month... (But no promise, cos I am more motivated to blog when i have photos to show... But nowadays i seldom take event photos from my phone, thus it may only be some reflections or thoughts record ba...)

Meanwhile, can't promise I will update often... so just stay tuned...

Expect more happening weeks ahead!

Exam Period...

2008-04-25T23:11:00.003+08:00

Yes... My 3rd yr 2nd semester has just officially ended last week... This week is the reading week before the exam period begins...

This semester I only have 3 exam papers as listed below:

30-04-08 9am NM3880A Copyright & New Media
05-05-08 9am CS4248 Natural Language Processing
05-05-08 1pm GEM1004 Reason & Persuasion

I think this is considered one of the easier exam semester for me, considered the GEM is a MCQ paper & the other 2 are quite spread out...

Will be studying & staying over in NUS Engine classroom again as usual, but this time round, don't really need me to do guard duty... cos got quite a no. of people also staying... =p

Wanting to go through this exam period with God again & experience Him in a new way!

Recently kept being reminded by God about what it really takes to become Jesus' disciple... Thinking about the new CG, myself & the situation I was given... it serves as an important point which I want to hold on too...

Share the verses from Luke 14:25-35...

The Cost of Being a Disciple

Large crowds were traveling with Jesus, and turning to them he said: "If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters—yes, even his own life—he cannot be my disciple. And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.

"Suppose one of you wants to build a tower. Will he not first sit down and estimate the cost to see if he has enough money to complete it? For if he lays the foundation and is not able to finish it, everyone who sees it will ridicule him, saying, 'This fellow began to build and was not able to finish.'

"Or suppose a king is about to go to war against another king. Will he not first sit down and consider whether he is able with ten thousand men to oppose the one coming against him with twenty thousand? If he is not able, he will send a delegation while the other is still a long way off and will ask for terms of peace. In the same way, any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be my disciple.

"Salt is good, but if it loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is fit neither for the soil nor for the manure pile; it is thrown out.
"He who has ears to hear, let him hear."

My CS5245 Video Project...

2008-04-21T06:01:00.000+08:00

Psalm 6...

2008-04-15T17:29:00.004+08:00

Psalm 6

O LORD, Deliver My Life

To the choirmaster: with stringed instruments; according to The Sheminith. A Psalm of David.

O LORD, rebuke me not in your anger,
nor discipline me in your wrath.
Be gracious to me, O LORD, for I am languishing;
heal me, O LORD, for my bones are troubled.
My soul also is greatly troubled.
But you, O LORD— how long?

Turn, O LORD, deliver my life;
save me for the sake of your steadfast love.
For in death there is no remembrance of you;
in Sheol who will give you praise?

I am weary with my moaning;
every night I flood my bed with tears;
I drench my couch with my weeping.
My eye wastes away because of grief;
it grows weak because of all my foes.

Depart from me, all you workers of evil,
for the LORD has heard the sound of my weeping.
The LORD has heard my plea;
the LORD accepts my prayer.
All my enemies shall be ashamed and greatly troubled;
they shall turn back and be put to shame in a moment.

Realised i did post this psalm last year during my sick period here... Get another kind of understanding this time when going through a tough period now...

God, lead me through this week...

Quality Time...

2008-04-08T01:46:00.004+08:00

Thanks for a few people who had long sessions of fellowship with me recently... It has been awhile since I had really long overnite life sharing with a person already... And I still have to say, I really enjoyed quality time with someone, especially overnite... Talking anything under the sun, but most of the time, deeper stuff about life and personal thoughts...
(So, thank you bowen, wenjiang, junyao, carrie, maureen... )

Being able to take some time off in the midst of busy schedules, and really slow down your pace in reflecting some thoughts can help one to make more sense of himself, as well as reminding him what's the important things in life...

Wanna share this song which I heard in my mp3 player on my way to school today... Very meaningful song to me personally...

J O U R N E Y
Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo
Copyright 1999, Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP)

It's a long, long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long, long journey
and I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long, long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it seems no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

'Cause it's a long, long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you

"He must be greater; I must be less." [John3:30]

Random thoughts...

2008-03-31T15:42:00.003+08:00

I want to get a bike...
I want a new guitar... (not to mention keyboard..)
I wish to start doing part-time to start earning own money...
I want to clear my studies projects/assignments...
I want to get driving license...

I want to see a psychiatrist...

Self-Diagnosis Result...

2008-03-27T23:05:00.004+08:00

Went to Borders bookstore today to search for relevant books to make more sense of my condition...

Found from the book "Depressed & Anxious" by Thomas Marra, 2004...

Quoting from the book:

Depression is when it takes energy to just move. You've lost your initiative, your ability & willingness to engage in activities. You want to do these things to fulfill your responsibilities, but it takes such tremendous effort. It's as if you're moving through thick mud just to be mobile, just to get things done that previously little energy or effort. And the effort it takes now just to live, just to do the basic chores and tasks of life, requires so much more energy than ever before. But that's not all. In addition to feeling depressed, you also feel anxious. You question your every move: Maybe something bad will happen. Maybe you'll miss something important. Your muscles tighten up like some catastrophe is about to happen. You have no energy to do things, but seemingly boundless endless energy to feel panic, dread, negative anticipation about the future, and the sense that your world as you previously knew it has changed.

If the above description fits you, then you are experiencing what is termed as Mixed Anxiety & Depression.

I have not get out of it... but i need to... but i also dun wanna be trapped in the 'fear of the fear'...

To know about about such condition, read more from here...

"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." [1 John 4:18]

Tough Times...

2008-03-27T01:00:00.003+08:00

Lord, please help me get through this....

God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
Selah
[Psalm 46:1-3]

My niece is just too cute....

2008-03-24T00:17:00.002+08:00

What a great shot I managed to capture today with my niece! Happily playing with her steering wheel! =)

She is so so cute! And she is a smart girl! =p

Very Nice Canto Worship Song!!

2008-03-23T15:48:00.001+08:00

Upload the MIDI version of the song in my blog...

Listen the song from the link below! =)

http://www.cbnhongkong.org/sitea/modules/tinyd2/index.php?id=9

Dragon Ball revisited...

2008-03-16T14:43:00.005+08:00

(taken from here)

Recently have the desire of re-reading the comic of Dragon Ball Z, initially just wanna read some of the individual exciting episodes, but end off got 'hook' to watch the series instead... Haha... (and it usually happens for any comics or series book I re-read!)

Despite knowing the story inside-out, but it never fail to entertain me... Haha...

孙悟空 is still the best!! Yey... Realised that his spirit of wanting to always train to become better, to excel his own current level is inspiring...

Me too yearns to have breakthroughs! 我也想突破自己的极限，变成超级赛亚人！！ =)

If only I have 仙豆 to recover my strength each time... haha... but i have Christ in me!

(taken from here)

Yet another personality test...

2008-03-07T17:51:00.002+08:00

Your personality type is INFP.

Introverted (I) 61%	Extraverted (E) 39%
Intuitive (N) 64%	Sensing (S) 36%
Feeling (F) 80%	Thinking (T) 20%
Perceiving (P) 64%	Judging (J) 36%

INFPs never seem to lose their sense of wonder. One might say they see life through rose-colored glasses. It's as though they live at the edge of a looking-glass world where mundane objects come to life, where flora and fauna take on near-human qualities.

INFP children often exhibit this in a 'Calvin and Hobbes' fashion, switching from reality to fantasy and back again. With few exceptions, it is the NF child who readily develops imaginary playmates (as with Anne of Green Gables's "bookcase girlfriend"--her own reflection) and whose stuffed animals come to life like the Velveteen Rabbit and the Skin Horse:

"...Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand..." (the Skin Horse)

INFPs have the ability to see good in almost anyone or anything. Even for the most unlovable the INFP is wont to have pity.

Rest you, my enemy,
Slain without fault,
Life smacks but tastelessly
Lacking your salt!
Stuck in a bog whence naught
May catapult me,
Come from the grave, long-sought,
Come and insult me!
--(Steven Vincent Benet, Elegy for an Enemy)

Their extreme depth of feeling is often hidden, even from themselves, until circumstances evoke an impassioned response:

"I say, Queequeg! Why don't you speak? It's I--Ishmael." But all remained still as before. ... Something must have happened. Apoplexy!
... And running up after me, she caught me as I was again trying to force open the door. ... "Have to burst it open," said I, and was running down the entry a little, for a good start, when the landlady caught me, again vowing I should not break down her premises; but I tore from her, and with a sudden bodily rush dashed myself full against the mark.--(Melville, Moby Dick)

Of course, not all of life is rosy, and INFPs are not exempt from the same disappointments and frustrations common to humanity. As INTPs tend to have a sense of failed competence, INFPs struggle with the issue of their own ethical perfection, e.g., perfo rmance of duty for the greater cause. An INFP friend describes the inner conflict as not good versus bad, but on a grand scale, Good vs. Evil. Luke Skywalker in Star Wars depicts this conflict in his struggle between the two sides of "The Force." Although the dark side must be reckoned with, the INFP believes that good ultimately triumphs.

Some INFPs have a gift for taking technical information and putting it into layman's terms. Brendan Kehoe's Zen and the Art of the Internet is one example of this "de-jargoning" talent in action.

Interested? Take it yourself here. =)

Short Term Mission trip to Hope Ipoh... [280208-020308]

2008-03-02T18:36:00.014+08:00

Yes... I am back from my 1st short term mission trip! =)

And because I was appointed to be the photographer of this trip, I managed to borrow the digital camera from my sis-in-law & took down quite a no. of photos... But I must say I am not experienced in taking candid shots, whereby people do not notice about you taking their pictures... Haha... It's a skill to master to be a decent photographer...

I shall describe more about what happened during the trip with the photos I have uploaded ba...

DAY 1

This is the 8 of us who went for this trip, namely Wenjiang, Manmi, Ruixia, Yenling, Xingni, Hongyao, myself & Yen Xiang(From left to right in photo). Took this photo at Golden Mile Complex in the morning before we board the Grassland coach bus...

After nearly 8 hours of travelling on the bus, (with a few stops for lunch & toilet breaks) we finally reached Ipoh. Sister Maggie from Hope Ipoh came to fetch us using the white church van in the photo.

It was just a short 5min drive from where we alighted to Hope Ipoh church. It was located on the 2nd floor along a normal street of shophouses. (similar to our Little India street style)

Sister Maggie introduced herself and shared to us about the history of Hope Ipoh, and how a few of them managed to persevere until there were breakthroughs in the people coming to Hope... It was a encouraging time of sharing to everyone.
(The 'unique' experience in the church that day was none other than the swarming mosquitoes that seems to be everywhere, you will hear a slapping sound by someone in the midst of our conversations, trying to kill a mosquito... Haha!)

Following that night, we went to join their working adults' CG for dinner and meeting some of their visiting friends to share the gospel with them. It was a challenge for most of us as we were asked to share in mandarin! But thank God, I think everyone did try their best to share their personal experience with God to the visitors. Really prayed that in time to come, will be able to receive the good news of them to start their personal relationship with God! =)

(Group photo taken at the end of the session)

DAY 2

The following day morning, we went to a nearby famous Tim Sum Restaurant from breakfast... Their services were quite efficient and interesting, the moment we sat down at our table, a bunch of the lady waitresses came in front of us, each carrying a large tray of dim sum, and they just started placing all the various dim sums on the table and asked if we want! Haha... Thus, the 'ordering' was done in a chop-chop manner and everyone started to enjoy the delicious breakfast!

(Yenling & Xingni in front of the dim sum restaurant...)

After having our breakfast, we went for a waterfall trip to Lata Kinjang Waterfall near Tapah. It took about 2 hours travelling on the van to reach the location. As it was a Friday morning, there wasn't any people there.. but usually the place will be crowded with people during weekends...

(Everyone climbing up the long flight of steps to reach the waterfall front.)

(the lower part of the waterfall...)

(taking photos in front of the waterfall...)

(Venturing to the nearer end of the waterfall... and taking more 'funny' photos from Yen Xiang's camera...)

After a wonderful time of playing with the water and sightseeing, we went back to Ipoh town for lunch. We came to another famous restaurant of Dao Gay Chicken & had another great meal...

After lunch, we went to the souvenir shop to buy some 土产, before we have a short tour around Ipoh town in our van, seeing some unique buildings like train station, library, etc... Finally, we went to their Ipoh old town to drink their local white coffee! =p

(Stunned by their Malaysia Elections' posters all over the streets!)

(Enjoying traditional white coffee in the coffee shop...)

(Hongyao: White Coffee.... BAGUS!)

(Group photo with brother Ernest before we set off to the ministry house near Universiti Teknologi PETRONAS aka UTP...)

It was another 2 hours of travelling from Ipoh to Tronoh, before we eventually reached the ministry house.

And while waiting for the UTP brothers & sisters to come and help us open the ministry house, something very interesting happened. There was an ice-cream man driving slowly around the neighborhood, but what caught our attention was that instead of the usual 'ring-ring' sound we heard in Singapore, we heard a 'Paddlepop' ringtone coming out from his speaker! Haha... It amused us all and made us decided to wanna get an ice-cream each to eat... LOL...

(Touring around the ministry house...)

(Interesting posters on the wall... Guess what does HUSC stands for?)

After settling down awhile in the ministry house, we went to have dinner at Kampung Bali nearby with the UTP brothers & sisters... We had a great time of ice-breaking game of remembering everybody's name before we started eating. And everyone just started to find out more about one another during dinner, it was a relaxing and refreshing time... =)

(Christon, Mei Le, Richard, Kuo Chun)

(Xingni, Jasmine, Wang Ning, Yenling)

(Yenling, Manmi & Ruixia drinking the special '来一桶' drink!)

(Top left: Witton, Yenling, Manmi, Mei Le, Jasmine, Yen Pinng, Wang Ning, Ruixia, Xingni, Wenjiang, Richard, Javier, Kuo Chun, Christon, Hongyao, myself)

DAY 3

Early in the next morning, sister Yen Pinng & Mei Fang came over to make lovely homemade sandwiches for our breakfast! So sweet!

(Everyone saying grace before having our breakfast and getting ready for the service later...)

We had our own small service that morning together with the UTPians in our ministry house. It was a great experience even though there were just about 20 of us. (Oh ya, we learnt a new praise song in Melayu! Cool!)

After the service, we continued to have lunch and fellowship. We also presented a little gift to the UTPians, a collection of a few interesting card games that can be found in Minds' Cafe, so that they can have good time of fellowship with one another and even for outreaching to their friends... (Indeed, we ourselves had a great time of fun playing them during that afternoon! Haha..)

(A last group photo in front of the ministry house before we leaving back to Ipoh to return Singapore...)

We have our 'last supper' at the Breeze Cafe in Ipoh town, where we had more fellowship and photo taking sessions... =p

(Vern, Xingni, Ruixia, Yen Pinng, Javier)

(Yenling, Manmi, Hongyao)

(Hongyao & myself)

(Playing the 'tiu-tiu' game before our order came... LOL...)

We departed Ipoh eventually at 9pm and returned back to Singapore at 6am. And that marks the end of our Short Term Mission-trip to Hope Ipoh...

What I shared above are purely the events that happened during the 3 days... But it didn't include my own personal reflections about this whole trip.. It was truly an enriching & fruitful trip for myself, and I have many thoughts about it which I shall not write in details here...

This is the blog of the UTP group: http://hopeipoh.wordpress.com/

Gone for STM... back on Sunday! [02-03-2008]

2008-02-28T06:29:00.003+08:00

Yes people, I'm leaving for a Short-Term Mission trip to KL Ipoh!

Will be back on Sunday again... =)

Feeling so excited... =p

"Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." [Matthew 28:19-20]

Busy? OK... Hurried? Not OK!

2008-02-21T00:59:00.003+08:00

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." [Matthew 11:28-30]

Dear God, help me understand this truth of Yours more & more...

Wanting rest & partnership with God in my busy times...

Sorry for no updates again...

2008-02-18T01:51:00.004+08:00

Yes, sorry... I have neglected my blog for awhile... Apologise for that...
Again, need to clarify that no entries on my blog doesn't mean nothing is happening in my life...

In fact, it's always the opposite! "No entries on my blog = Many things happening in my life"!

But one thing for sure that cause me to feel less motivated to blog is after I started using my Nokia 5610 Express Music... 'Cos taking photos & videos are not longer as fast and convenient as my N70... Bottom line: I miss my N70... =(

So, no photos taken = less visual stuff to record...

Wanting to start the habit of more intensive reading, Christian books in particular... Hopefully can start a goal of reading at least a new book once a month... I already read 2 books since CNY... felt that reading is one of the few ways which I can really learn God's truth and gain wisdom out of them...

More details about this book

Happy Belated Birthday, Junyao! =)

<功夫灌篮> 新加坡首映会!

2008-02-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

第一次参加电影的首映会... 好开心！（谢谢诗如！）

（首映会现场三千人...）

（周杰伦好小哦...）

我看还是不要写太多有关电影的看法吧... 等电影正是上映的时候才写多一点感想吧...

接下来就是等待星爷的《长江七号》了！！ =p

Sorry no updates...

2008-01-28T00:55:00.000+08:00

Didn't post for 1 week plus... Sorry abt that...

Got things in mind, but didn't pen them down here... See if I will update them again ba...

Today's highlight is: I played with my niece for the whole afternoon today.. It was really fun to see her laugh and walk around and trying to learn new words... I was very proud of her! =p

Tutorial starts this week...

(As for my modules decision... I somewhat made up my mind to carry on with my 6 modules... So God, please help me to go through them with You...)

Essential Brew @ Holland Village...

2008-01-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

Went dinner with Jeff at this nice restaurant in Holland V called Essential Brew. Indeed, the place is quite cozy and the atmosphere is good for chilling out... with the cushions to sit on the floor with your shoes removed at the 2nd floor...

Heard from Sweeleong that the place is ideal to chill out in afternoon time when there are little people...

The food there are not bad... Nice steak I tried... Hehe...

*Oh... Good news for my philo module... Attended the 1st lecture today, the lecturer said about the possibility to switch the module code into arts gem if we just appeal through CORS! PTL! =)

That brightens up my day more... Thank you Lord! =p

First day of semester...

2008-01-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

OK... Officially started my semester today... Thank God I don't have any Monday blues... =)

Was quite thankful during my bidding as I was able to secure my Copyright & New Media module today! Which means I will be able to take it together with Jesse & Bowen...

As for my other module which I tried to bid, Reason & Persuasion, sad to say that there's just too many people out there trying to fight for the few places available... And with just the 600 bid points at hand, I can't do much...

So, ended up I decided to drop the idea of taking it as my Arts GEM, but taking it as a Philo module to clear my UE... Result in getting the module with just 1 points (20 people bidding for 147 places... DUH?)

There's still a slim chance for me to get it tml and wednesday, I will still try to see if i can bid for it, and I shall let God do the rest, if it's in His will for me to take it as Arts GEM, then He will definitely provide eventually... I shall just wait patiently...

Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." [James 4:13-15]

So now, tentatively the modules I am taking this semester will be:

CS3248 - Design of Interactive Media
CS4247 - Image Synthesis and Computer Animation
CS4248 - Natural Language Processing
CS5245 - Vision and Graphics for Special Effects
NM3880A - Copyright & New Media
PH1101E - Reason & Persuasion

I shall decide again whether I am capable to manage 6 modules after attending the 1st 2 weeks of lectures, or if it's necessary for me to withdraw from 1 of them to prevent any chaos from happening this sem... =/

Oh, my time-table this semester is mainly in the afternoon till late evening (or nite), so I won't have much problem for being late for 1st morning lessons like previous sems... =p

So far so good... Looking forward to attend the rest of the lectures in the week!

Last Day before Semester starts again!

2008-01-13T13:34:00.000+08:00

Yup... last day before "The Start of Something New"... =p

Vexille

2008-01-10T23:28:00.000+08:00

Went to watch the movie "Vexille" with Jeffrey today at the Cathay Picturehouse...

Enjoyed the movie very much... Think the character development was good, not to mention the cool CG effects and stuff... And I like the music used inside the film...

Synopsis:

It's 2077 and Japan has become a renegade nation closed to the rest of the world. Shielded from penetration by air, sea and space for 10 years, the island nation has become a mystery to the United Nations. The isolation resulted when it fell out with other countries over the development of robotics which was banned everywhere else. Japan has taken its creation of human androids to the extreme and the only way to overcome them is to send in a crack team to hook up with Japanese underground rebels. Enter Vexille, a female special agent, whose squad uses ultra-high-tech weapons for battle.

Can watch it if you like jap anime, or futuristic theme plot...

Official Website: http://www.vexille.jp/

New blog skin! Woohoo!!

2008-01-10T03:33:00.000+08:00

Haha... Being influenced to also wanna change my blogskin for 2008! I love it... Took me nearly 3 hours to customise it properly & figuring out what's what in the html code...

So why this blog skin? Simply because... I love rainbow colour!!

I hope with this new look of my blog, it will also serve as a reminder to myself the joy that I always have within me no matter how bad are my circumstances... =p

Oh ya, added in a new midi piece too... (Thanks to tiyo's lyrics that give me the 灵感!)

5 more days before my sem 6 starts... =)

Why - Nicole Nordeman (illustrated)

2008-01-09T02:29:00.000+08:00

A fun day of activities.... Yey!

2008-01-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

Today managed to get Maureen to accompany me to sing for Klunch in amk... Yey..
Supposed to sing from just 11-2pm, but guess not much pple sing in the wkdays, they allow us to sing till 3 by ordering one more drink..

Main conclusion from this 'practise' session: Gary's key is way too high for me to sing decently, especially his duet songs... Lowered 2 keys is more ideal for me to attempt... LOL
(Thanks mau for your help & feedback!)

Watched "Alvin & the Chipmunks" again with Mau at Jubilee, kinda cool to find a 3.30pm show by the time we passed by the cinema, so walked in and bought the tickets ($5.50, cheap cheap)... I then remembered how much I like watching movies in Jubilee, cos it's just cozy yet not run-down for a neighbourhood cinema, and i like the fact that I can easily walk-in for a movie just 5min b4 the show and there's still PLENTY of seats available... =)

After the movies, went to arcade (as usual) for some games... Surprisingly, we started to play those 'children' games that will give coupons where u can earn & exchange it for some gifts... I forgot when's the last time I did that, but it's quite refreshing for a change...

I guess the highlight in the arcade was playing the Silent Hill shooting game. The story flow is slow and draggy, and the monsters always prefer to attack me instead of mau! Haha...

During dinner, I was glad to meet up with Zing to catch up on our lives... A very good time of fellowship & sharing together... (Oh, thank you for the shirt Zing!)

Yup, so it was a very fruitful day for me, both relaxation & fellowship time...

Oh, sorry I haven post my reflection thoughts about 2007 & my new year resolutions... It's still in my draft folder, cos haven completed it... Paiseh... =P

Reflections of 2007...

2008-01-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... My reflections of 2007 as a whole... Kinda weird to combine my sem 4 & sem 5 together and give a conclusion... But I guess I shall just try to list down some of the major things that I went through in the year.

I shall try to write them out under the various categories, namely Studies/Work, Relationships, Economics, Spiritual, Health, Others.

Studies: Well, the 2 semesters I had experienced in 2007 are in 2 extremes. My Yr 2 sem 2 are very arts-based (New Media to be exact), while my Yr 3 sem 1 are very lab-based (programming).. I shall elaborate more on my Yr 3 sem 1 here... (read up on archive for my
sem 4) Hmmmm... As my results have shown, it was quite apparent that I didn't manage my studies well for this semester. One of the main reasons was that I honestly had the thinking that 'Grades no longer matters to me as much as before'. Perhaps I enjoy learning in general, but not learning something for the sake of exams & tests. For e.g. for my Bahasa Indonesian language module, I had alot of fun learning the new language every week, but when it comes to tests, somehow I didn't do as well... Least to say for my other hard programming modules...
Most importantly, I really wanna thank God for giving me a second chance with my results, (allowing my S/U options to come into rescue for my CAP) despite me making a mess out of it.

Relationship: This year, I would say 2 major things that happened in terms of relationship are my family as well as spiritual family. For my family, both my niece & nephew are growing healthily as the days go, and me learning more on how to be a caring uncle towards them. And I thank God for that, in a way, I was being 'trained' to be prepared to take care of people. For my spiritual family, particularly my caregroup, NUSC3, I have grown with my relationship with everyone, and also the desire to grow in love for them along the way.
As for the breakthroughs, I took the challenge to become a shepherd! Though I still have a long way to learn how to be a good one, but I believe God is helping me... =)
Perhaps one thing to thank God for this year was getting to know Junyao as a dear brother, someone whom I can really share things to and who always keep a lookout on me, making sure that I am doing ok... (though I still took him for granted sometimes.. =p )
And of course, I have my new shepherd Ellson, who is also a brother who knows me well & always tries to avail himself for me despite his busy schedule at work... (Thanks bro!)

Economics: This in short just means my financial area for this year. I don't have much to say for this area, particularly because I still have not seriously consider about financial management. I did attempted to do a record of my spendings, but the habit didn't last long.. (Sorry, i haven't grow my conviction on this yet.)

Spiritual: I would say I have grown much this year in my spiritual way with God, more in the area of knowledge & understanding of God's truth, perhaps the only thing that I had wished i can do more is converting more of my 'head knowledge' into 'heart conviction', that lead into practical application. And a particular area I learn in was being an artist for God, the issues I face.. based on the book "Heart of the Artist", which really caused me to reflect on myself in the Creative Arts Ministry...

Health: Hmmm, my physical condition was pretty 'exciting' this year. Well, 1st there was dengue fever, and the rest was history... All these experience did remind me of how important our physical body are, cos without them functioning well, we can't do things as per normal... So, being rather unhealthy after all the illnesses, I missed all my workouts and of course, the full marathon... Went through another long period of sickness during the Xmas season, while preparing for the Xmas production. It was the 1st time I totally lost my voice! And it was so miserable, I can't describe how sad I am for not being able to sing... But thank God the voice came back & I managed to perform in the end. (though the cough dragged quite long until I actually missed caroling this year...)

Others: One thing that I wish to highlight as one of my skill developments was music composition! I truly thank God for the creative mind that He has given me, allow the tune to come into my head and compose it out! Though I can't say that the pieces are very good, but I like them very much personally, mainly because I know it's a new talent that God has blessed me with! And I am excited about the future music I will be able to compose! Yey... =p

Yup, that sums it all for my 2007...

As for my new year resolutions... shall write it in another later post... =p

Mother Birthday Celebration...

2007-12-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

This year, we decided to go Turf Club aka 马城 to try the seafood restaurant there as a celebration for my mother's belated birthday....

My happy nephew playing with the turtle soft toy...

My happy mother 'playing' with her cute grandson... LOL

Welcome to Turf City...

Oh dear... Look at all the crabs!

More Crabs...

It's ALL CRABS!!!!

My active niece getting all ready to enjoy her dinner...

Photo of Grandparents & children... =p

妈妈，生日快乐!!!

Results of Semester I 07/08...

2007-12-27T12:00:00.000+08:00

This semester, I didn't post my prediction beforehand here because I was afraid of my prediction to come true... Put it another way, I know I am going to get quite a bad result this sem...

Anyway, here is the results.... (I won't post my prediction, it's not far from actual ones..)

CS2105 - Computer Network 1 -------------------------------- D+
CS3240 - Human-Computer Interaction ----------------------- B+
CS3243 - Foundation of Artificial Intelligence ------------------ B
CS4213 - Game Development ---------------------------------- F
LAB1201 - Bahasa Indonesia I --------------------------------- C+

Have many thoughts in mind, but haven really settled down to pen any down here...
Although I have expected to fail my 4213, but I didn't really think of the reality after it... Now that this is really happening, I have to really plan the future modules... Especially those 4000 elective modules which I have to choose based on my interest...

So, have I learn my lesson the hard way? I guess so...

Will I repeat the same mistake? I hope not, but I know it may just happen... =/

祝我生日快乐...

2007-12-17T17:12:00.000+08:00

《祝我生日快乐》
曲：周杰伦 | 词：郑中庸 | 编：林迈可

我知道伤心不能改变什么那么让我诚实一点
诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄只要关上了门不必理谁

一个人坐在空荡包厢里面手机让它休息一夜
难像切歌切掉回忆的画面眼泪不能不能流过十二点

生日快乐我对自己说蜡烛点了寂寞亮了
生日快乐泪也融了我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切

还爱你带一点恨还要时间才能平衡
热恋伤痕幻灭重生祝我生日快乐

Thanks for all the smses & gifts people... =)

Flash back of Semester 5...

2007-12-06T22:13:00.000+08:00

Okay, exams finally over... (I was supposed to be so happy until I started jumping around... but i didn't...)

My throat has been giving me problem since the last wkend... Now started coughing and loss of my voice... =(

Anyway, now that I have a slight 'free' time, I guess I better use it to update and post some main events that happened over the past semester... I tried to put it in sequence if i can find relevant photos of it...

Hope Run @ East Coast Park [19th August]

(Me, Jojo, Boss, Mau)

(Jun & Me)

(Brothers with free Milos!)

(High Score made by '四大金刚'！)

AHM 2007 [26th August]

(Victory for completing the race!)

16th Hope Anniversary @ Downtown East [15th September]

(1. NUS Brothers / 2. NUS Sisters / 3. Macho Turbo Brothers)

(1. NUSC3 / 2. NUS Unit C)

March Turbo Plus Camp @ Pasir Ris PA Club [22-24th September]

(We are the MACHO TURBO!! ROAR!!!)

LAB1201 Bahasa Indonesia Project @ NUS [19th October]

(Indonesian Traditional Costumes)

Carrie's Birthday Celebration @ Istana Park [20th October]

(NUSC3 with Bleaahh..)

(1. Sisters with Carrie / 2. Brothers with Carrie)

CS3243 AI Lego Demo @ NUS [6th November]

(Me & Yuzheng with our AI Lego Robot!)

March Outing @ Sentosa [8th November]

(Legs Power!!)

Theodore & Kym's Wedding day @ Furama Hotel [17th November]

(Congratulation to Theodore & Kym!)

Xmas Walk walk @ Orchard Road [1st December]

(Jesse 'Hebe', Carrie 'Ella', Maureen 'Selina')

Last but not least, more recent photos of my niece & nephew!

("Can I have a light?")

(Look how much my Princess Jadyn has grown!)

Rowan Atkinson is totally awesome!

2007-11-26T06:59:00.000+08:00

Another semester over!!!

2007-11-17T00:22:00.000+08:00

Yes.... My Semester 5 officially ended today... Next week is reading week, after which will be my exams spreading across 2 weeks...

Sorry for not updating my blog with what's happening in my life... I must say alot of things happened all these while, beside dealing with school work & busy with rushing labs & project deadlines, I think I also experienced a lot of spiritual & emotional stuff too...

Well, I have to be honest that I haven been very diligent with my studies for this semester... And I have a slightly deeper understanding of the verse "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths." [Proverbs 3:5-6]

I guess I shall share more in details after the exams ba... I'll also try to backtrack to update some interesting stuff that happened during the semester...

Something to look forward to: staying over in school to study for exams!

I think that has been the main motivation to cause me to wanna study, to be able to have support from one another during these rather stressful season... One good thing for this semester is my papers are scheduled in a spread way, unlike past bad experiences... Haha... In anyway, I shall seriously plan my revision schedule to make full use of all the time available...

Below are my exam schedules...

27th Nov (Tue) 1pm CS3243 - Foundation of Artificial Intelligence
30th Nov (Fri) 9am CS3240 - Human-Computer Interaction
4th Dec (Tue) 5pm CS2105 - Computer Networks
6th Dec (Thu) 9am CS4213 - Game Development

After that, it will be CHRISTMAS SEASON!! WOOHO!!! =)

《第一次的亲密接触》

2007-11-11T16:13:00.000+08:00

Watched it 5 years ago... Liked the script alot...

This coming one will be a 改编 version, with 王国燊 as 编剧! =)

Date: 19th-22nd Decemeber 2007
Time: 8pm
Venue: Jubilee Hall @ Raffles Hotel
Price: $28, $38, $48

http://www.intimatecontact1.blogspot.com

Another Personality Test...Haha

2007-11-11T15:35:00.001+08:00

You Are An INFJ

The Protector

You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.
Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.
You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.
You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.

In love, you truly see relationships as an opportunity to connect and grow.
You enjoy relationships as long as they are improving and changing. You can't stand stagnation.

At work, you stay motivated and happy... as long as you are working toward a dream you support.
You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

How you see yourself: Hardworking, ethical, and helpful

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Manipulative, weak, and unstable

What's Your Personality Type?

A Blessed Story...

2007-11-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

There once was a man named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England town. One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a rusty, bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit. Eyebrows were raised and, as if in response, Pastor Thomas began to speak...'I was walking through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me swinging this bird cage. On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with cold and fright. I stopped the lad and asked, 'What you got there, son?' 'Just some old birds,' came the reply.

'What are you gonna do with them?' I asked.

'Take 'em home and have fun with 'em,' he answered 'I'm gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. I'm gonna have a real good time' 'But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do?'

'Oh, I got some cats,' said the little boy. 'They like birds. I'll take 'em to them.'

The pastor was silent for a moment. 'How much do you want for those birds, son?'
'Huh?? !!! Why, you don't want them birds, mister. They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing. They ain't even pretty!'

'How much?' the pastor asked again.

The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said, '$10?'
The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone.

The pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley where there was a tree and a grassy spot Setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting them free.

Well, that explained the empty bird cage on the pulpit, and then the pastor began to tell this story.

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. 'Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!'

'What are you going to do with them?' Jesus asked.

Satan replied, 'Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!'

'And what will you do when you get done with them?' Jesus asked. 'Oh, I'll kill 'em,' Satan glared proudly. 'How much do you want for them?' Jesus asked.

'Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you. You don't want those people!!'

'How much?' He asked again.

Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, 'All your blood, tears and your life.'

Jesus said, 'DONE!'

Then He paid the price.

Be blessed. =)

How to cope with Depression?

2007-10-15T12:50:00.000+08:00

[Taken from http://www.wikihow.com/Cope-with-Depression]

Depression is a terrible affliction in our society. Approximately 16% of the population have suffered from depression at least once in their lives and it is expected that by the year 2020, it will be the second leading cause of disability behind heart disease. Although medications are often prescribed to treat depression, you may want to explore other options before taking this route. However, if you are currently suffering acutely, you should not feel as though you need to wait to seek a psychiatrist for a consultation.

Steps

Determine if you really are depressed, and what the problem is. Do you lack motivation? Do you have trouble enjoying things that you used to? Do you cry a lot? Does it seem that nothing is really worth doing? Do you feel that your life is meaningless? If so, it is possible that are sinking into the psychological quicksand of clinical depression.
Get plenty of sleep. In the modern world, there is an increasing problem of people not getting enough sleep. Practice good sleep hygiene and try to get around eight hours. Depression and anxiety of any sort can interfere with sleep, so this may or may not be possible.
Get out of bed in the morning. If this is something you are struggling with, ask a friend to call you in the morning to make sure you are awake.
Exercise. A recent study showed exercise to be as effective as Zoloft (a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor or SSRI) in treating depression. Exercise is very good for body and mind. Depression can make it hard to work up the motivation and energy to do it, but it is well worth a try. You may find long walks easier than other forms of exercise - put one foot in front of the other, and walk as far as you are able. You might work up to even 1 or 2 hours every day, but start off with shorter walks. Even if you can only manage a few minutes to start, that is still a good starting point.
Watch your favorite comedy, talk with people who make you laugh, visit your childhood hangouts or do anything that helps you remember happier times.
Think about happy thoughts. Focus on the details.
Go out and do something you enjoy. Buy yourself something nice, get a new haircut, or eat a good meal.
To get your mind off your own problems, try to think of some way (big or small) you can help someone else.
Meditate. Yoga is useful in fighting depression, and allows you to meet new people. In particular, Yoga Nidra is a form of meditation and relaxation that makes you feel better.
Talk to friends, anyone who will give you support. If you're feeling really down, have them make a list of your best qualities.
Find positive outlets and channels for your emotions: music, writing, whatever.
Don't compare yourself to other people. Compare yourself to you at your lowest point in the past and think about what's better now. Pat yourself on the back for it. If you think you're at your lowest point ever, then imagine one small thing (the tiniest thing you can think of) that you know you can make better. And then move on from there.
Don't obsess about it or be hard on yourself if you still feel depressed or aren't happy. Nothing's more depressing than being angry at yourself for being depressed.
Change your life. Often times depression results from a deep-rooted desire to be in a different situation than you are right now. If you don't like your parents, move out of your house. If you don't like your city, move to a different one. If you don't like your job, find a new one.
Avoid poisonous people. Although you may show your unhappiness by acting depressed, others may reveal it through negativity, treating others badly, exercising power over others, insulting others, etc. Also avoid other depressed people. Depression is contagious. It may be hard to find happy people who are willing to help you out of your funk, but it's worth it.
Seek counseling. High school counselors and University counselors are paid the same amount no matter how many people they see, so they have no incentive to keep you coming back to them.
Seek medical advice from a trusted family doctor if you have persistent depression. A doctor may prescribe an anti-depressant if appropriate. However, keep in mind that it may be more appropriate to seek the help of a psychiatrist, as family doctors are not as equipped to correctly diagnose and treat clinical depression, or to distinguish between it and disorders which may display similar symptoms but require different treatment.
Diet & Nutrion: Ensure that you are including in your diet healthy foods and proper liquids. Too often than not we either neglect eating all together when we are depressed as well as drinking fluids or we eat too much of our favorite manufactured, chemically engineered foods with no nutrional value as well as inadvertantly robbing us of our much needed nutrients to survive all the same with drinking too much of our favorite sodas, coffees, 'fake' juice like drinks or turning to alcohol to ease our depressed mood. The depressed person (testimony of personal experience) doesn't have to make drastic changes to their diet but just adding in a few will make a world of difference and the effects are amazingly positive and instantaneous. Add in some of your favorite fruits or salads. Try ice cold water with a bit of lemon if you have trouble drinking water. Even one glass of water is helpfull and istead of sodas try your favorite sports drink (i.e. Gatorade, Propel, etc.) these alone will replenish your lost electrolytes that your body must have and as mentioned earlier. The results will be instant and you'll be amazed wondering why you didn't do it sooner.

Tips

Spend one hour out in the sunlight every day.
Avoid depressing movies, songs, art, and especially avoid depressing people.
If you have thoughts of suicide or self-injury, get professional help immediately.
Keep your surrounding warm and well-lit during the day. Prefer a well-lit room or open window curtains/blinds during the day.
Stay busy with work that keeps your brain occupied. A recent study has proven that when you are wholly focused on the task at hand, you are physically unable to worry or think about your troubles. And staying productive is the best way to prove to yourself that you're not worthless and things can really change.
With all of the advice given here: REMEMBER that it does not have to be done in drastic measures. One glass of water. One apple. 15min in the sun. A half hour or more earlier to bed than before or half hour or more earlier getting out of bed. A short walk to the....? end of the block, walking a little further into the store by parking farther away... just any of these common sense activities and lifestyle additions/changes that EVERYONE needs to do in order to be more healthy & active will help the average person but more dramatically, will help the depressed person.

Warnings

If you feel depressed for more than two weeks, you may have clinical depression. Seek psychiatric help and/or counseling. Clinical depression can be caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain (which itself can be caused by bad thinking habits).
Suicide makes it impossible for things to ever improve. Something could happen tomorrow that feels good or that shows you the way out. Make sure you're there when it happens.
Do not self medicate. Avoid alcohol, nicotine and illicit drugs. Try to avoid caffeine, or switch to herbal tea.

One week or mid-term break went past at the blink of the eye...=(

2007-10-01T01:53:00.001+08:00

Facebook - A new virtual playing ground for me...

http://www.facebook.com

Support my friend's short film....<陌声>

2007-09-15T02:13:00.000+08:00

http://derailproductions.blogspot.com/

Free screening on 5th Oct @ *scape (opp cineleisure)

Can support... =)

God is good... All the time!

2007-09-09T23:51:00.000+08:00

Just came back home from M.A.D (Members Appreciation Day). Very ministered by God during the session. Can't help but to feel so blessed to be touched & loved by God...

Also realised that I sort of neglected my blog alittle since the school start... I should say I am rather slow in adjusting back to a studying life, where consistent work is needed to keep up with the new content we learn every week.

Can't say I am stressed about my studies now, since I belong to the 临时抱佛脚 people, I will only got stressed up after I leave all my work at the very last min... And clearly, the time has not yet came though it's silently creeping in slowly... (So, I need to change my attitude soon...)

Just thought of recording down some small thoughts I had somewhere during the past 2 weeks...

1. 蓝天白云

During 2 afternoon trip down to NUS campus in the cab, I was surprised to see the beautiful clear blue sky & the big white clouds here and there. I was really admiring the great scenery which I haven been able to do so since long long time ago. I didn't manage to take a photo of it as the cab was traveling quite fast. But it was something like this:

Really, for a moment, I was so amazed by this wonderful world which God has created. It certainly cheers my day up, being reminded that I have a great & loving God in my life!

It also triggered some childhood memories of myself, gazing over the car window, staring at the sky whenever I was sitting in the car... I think back then, I am still too young to understand the concept of a Creator, but I truly fascinated by this simple natural sight.

Whether it's a day or night, looking up across the sky can be very relaxing to the mind!

More often than not, when we are facing some down or hard times in the midst of our lives, we tend to feel that they are too much for us to handle, or that God can't help us... But ask yourself this question, "The same God who created the whole universe is the same God that's living in you too! Do you think there will be any more complicated problem where God can't solve?"

An old saying goes:
"Instead of telling God that you have a BIG problem, tell the problem that you have a BIG God!!"

Let's really learn to "live out what we truly believe"!! =)

2. My Niece & Nephew

Yes, looking at their innocent baby face, aren't they adorable!??

It's really amazing to witness their growth in the daily basis, seeing them learning to crawl, growing their tooth, trying to make sense of every new things they see...

I simply love them, just because they are my dear niece and nephew... No matter how 'bad' they behave, how their loud crying irritate me, I still love them... They may not understand it, or even reject my kindness, but that doesn't change the fact that I want the best for them.

Similarly, through the babies, I can understand a slight feeling of God towards us, His children... He is also trying to explain to me this:

"I simply love you, just because you are my precious creation, my beloved child... No matter how 'bad' you behave, how you ignore me, I still love you... You may not understand it now, but that doesn't change the fact that I have a great plan that's best for you."

It's really great to realise that God's love is that simple, yet so deep & wide, that are able to touch each individual one of us in a unique way... God is simply Awesome !!!

3. My CareGroup - NUSC3

Yes, this is my current caregroup (CG). We are a group of diversified people who have different personality, studying in different campus, in various stages of our life. I really thank God for my CG. That's why I really have a burden for it.

I pray that, as our CG get together more in future, we can eventually be united in spirit, and as a vibrant spiritual family, to attempt great things for God!

Something shared by Ellson (my shepherd):
"When you pray for courage, God don't just give you courage. But He will give you opportunity where you can be courageous."

Likewise, when we wanna pray for breakthroughs, God will put us in a situation whereby we need to get out from our comfort zone & be transformed!

I hope I can learn to fulfill my role in the CG, as an elder brother, to love, guide & encourage the people to grow and maintain a close walk with God...

Once again, thank God for NUSC3!!
Carrie, Jesse, Huifang, Jeffrey, Maureen, Kezia, Johanna, Jesline & Sher Li...
Thank God for all of you! =p

360 Degree Interactive Light Field Display! Science fiction comes true.

2007-09-04T11:10:00.000+08:00

This is too cool!

Does Evil Exist?

2007-08-25T00:51:00.000+08:00

Taken from a brother's blog, very interesting! (Thanks Steven!)

A university professor challenged his students with this question. Did God create everything that exists?

A student bravely replied, "Yes, he did!"

"God created everything?" The professor asked.

"Yes, sir," the student replied.

The professor answered, "If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principal that our works define who we are then God is evil."

The student became quiet before such an answer.

The professor was quite pleased with himself and boasted to the students that he had proven once more that the Christian faith was a myth.

Another student raised his hand and said, "Can I ask you a question professor?"

"Of course," replied the professor.

The student stood up and asked, "Professor, does cold exist?"

"What kind of question is this? Of course, it exists. Have you never been cold?"

The students snickered at the young man's question.

The young man replied, "In fact sir, cold does not exist. According to the laws of physics, what we consider cold is in reality the absence of heat. Everybody or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-460 degrees F) is the total absence of heat; all matter becomes inert and incapable of reaction at that temperature. Cold does not exist. We have created this word to describe how we feel if we have no heat."

The student continued. "Professor, does darkness exist?"

The professor responded, "Of course it does."

The student replied, "Once again you are wrong sir, darkness does not exist either. Darkness is in reality the absence of light. Light we can study, but not darkness. In fact we can use Newton's prism to break white light into many colors and study the various wavelengths of each color. You cannot measure darkness. A simple ray of light can break into a world of darkness and illuminate it. How can you know how dark a certain space is? You measure the amount of light present. Isn't this correct? Darkness is a term used by man to describe what happens when there is no light present."

Finally the young man asked the professor. "Sir, does evil exist?"

Now uncertain, the professor responded, "Of course as I have already said. We see it every day. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil."

To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is not like faith, or love that exist just as does light and heat. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light."

The professor sat down.

Start of new semester...

2007-08-21T01:46:00.000+08:00

It has been one week plus since the semester started... So far so good...

Describe a bit of the modules I am taking this semester...

CS2105 - Introduction to Computer Networks

The only level 2000 module this semester, nothing much to say about this 'cos it's a required module for all SoC students, meaning I have to take it whether I like it or not. I don't particularly have much interest in it, but I shall try to find some useful knowledge which will motivate me to get through it without struggle... (Thank God Yizhong is taking too! Hehe..)

CS3240 - Human-Computer Interaction

My major requirement, but it's a topic I have interest with... But I have fear for this module after going through the 1st lecture. How should I put it? Let's just say that it was a challenge for me to stay focused and interested by the way the lecturer speaks... (Get the rough idea?) Anyway, I shall try not to make that as an excuse for not paying attention. It just means that I need to spend more effort on it during my own time... (Too bad no webcast... )

CS3243 - Foundations of Artificial Intelligence

This is not my required module, I just decided to take it because I have not much choice of modules to take this sem. But I thank God for making the decision to take this module, because it's really interesting and the lecturer is very friendly and I personally enjoyed his style of teaching... Moreover, this module will be helpful if I want to go into the gaming industry as gaming plays a major field of studies in AI. Looking forward for the challenging but interesting projects... (got a chance to build LEGO robots, cool!)

CS4213 - Game Development

My first level 4000 module! (How daring... LOL) But this is something I really excited about, after taking game related modules last sem (intro to gaming & game design I) & discovered my joy in studying them... Though I foresee higher challenges in this module, but I would still like to believe that as I hold on to the interest, it can put me through eventually... (as shown in last sem!) But definitely more hardwork will be required from me, I will 'jiayou'... =p

LAB1201 - Bahasa Indonesia

The only non-CS module for this semester... Few reasons why I decided to take up this new language:
1. I lack a 5th module & I want a non-CS module.
2. I want a module which will not further burden my heavy core workload.
3. I want a module which I can learn something out of it. (not just to clear MC or study for exam sake)
4. I have 2 church friends who intend to take it already. (Venetia & Guanzhen)
5. I always wanted to try a language module, though my top list language has always been Japanese. Then why I don't choose Japanese instead? Because I don't have enough bidding points to get it.
6. My 2nd sis-in-law is an Indonesian, so it'll be good if I can understand the language to communicate with her. Also, my church has an Indonesian congregation, I feel that it will be beneficial for me if I learn how to speak.
So in summary, this module sort of meet all my criteria.. =)
But again, this is the only module which I am learning something totally from scratch, so that's the challenge. This will be the chance to experiment whether am I really 'gifted' in learning language, as passed down by my mother... Keke... Well, we will find out at the end of semester!

I am tuning back in balancing my time between my studies and other areas in my life. Hope I can still enjoy every bit of this semester! (before I get pinned down by the workload... LOL)
My physical health is more or less recovered, so I will also be getting back to my routine physical workout soon... Hmmm... still considering in going for the AHM this coming sunday though I didn't sign up... =)

Last Day before the start of Semester I AY07/08!

2007-08-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

Yes... Today is the last day of holiday before my Sem V officially starts tomorrow... So, to enjoy the last bit of time I have, I decided to catch 2 movies today! Never tried it before, quite an experience to walk out of cinema and then entered it again immediately for the 2nd show, HAHA!

I watched <不能说的秘密> & <881>.

Hmmm... Don't really know how to comment on both shows.... Perhaps I was too critical today, I noticed quite a no. of areas in both shows which I don't really like... But I still will agree that both movies are above average, still enjoyable as a whole...

In short,

<不能说的秘密>: very sweet romantic story, but ending abit disappointing...

<881>: very local taste movie with nice visual as audio elements, but story progress in btw have room for improvements...

But the songs are really nice, in fact, the music kept ringing in my mind on my way back home until I decided to create the MIDI version of the theme song <一人一半>, which I already loaded in my blog... To listen to the original version, can click here.

Below are the lyrics:

<一人一半>

一人一半感情不散
一人一素故感情才会久

时光累计安静的泪滴
一心去追爱那么可贵

这样的人这样地等
无畏是等个回应眼神
为爱翻滚不计伤痕
甘心为你一生都浮沉

这样的人别笑我蠢
傻傻的心痛也不觉疼
就算天冷就算残忍
等你想起这没用的人

一人一半感情不散
已经找到爱为何要离开

Corrinne May latest album: Beautiful Seed

2007-08-11T13:37:00.000+08:00

Quoting from Corrinne May's myspace blog entry...

Beautiful Seed -The Stories Behind the Album

This is the stuff that is being printed in the Japanese liner
notes when 'Beautiful Seed' is released in Japan in September 2007 by S2S/ Major Chord Records.
Just thought I'd share them with you.

[SPOILER ALERT] - For those who want to explore the songs by themselves, please don't read any further :)

As asked by Major Chord Records :Regarding the Japanese liner notes: would you make some comments on each song -- what did you try to express with those songs, what kind of feelings did you have when composing them? Is there any story behind the songs?

1) Love Song For 1
I love observing nature. I love looking up at the stars, or the clouds and trees, knowing that the God who created all this beauty also created me. This is a song of gratitude and love.

2) Shelter
Friends support and help each other through difficult times. This song is about friendship.
It is a song to a friend to tell her that I will be here for her through the difficulty she is going through. All she has to do is call me and I will help her in whatever way I can.

3) On The Side Of Me
This is a song about the power of love. No matter how unloveable I think I am, there is someone who loves me a lot. Loves me despite all my faults, my failures, despite my bad habits. I think it's wonderful to be loved for who I am, no matter what.

4) Five Loaves and Two Fishes
This song is based on my favourite bible story. The story is about how Jesus made a miracle happen by taking five loaves and two fishes offered by a little boy, and using that to feed 5000 people.
I think it's an amazing story about how, no matter how small we may think about what we have to offer, we should trust that our offerings, our gifts are never wasted. Our gifts and our talents should be treasured for they can be used in many beautiful ways.

5) Beautiful Seed
I think people often forget how the smallest, most seemingly insignificant things can have such beautiful possibilities. All it takes is one person to make a difference in this world. People like Mother Teresa, Gandhi and Martin Luther King Jr. testify to this fact. But often, we are so afraid to try, to speak up, or to make a difference.

I named the album and the song 'Beautiful Seed' because I think that a seed is a wonderful metaphor for our lives. We are all like seeds. Seeds grow unseen in the soil and then sprout, and some seed become the biggest, most majestic trees and others grow to eventually bear wonderful fruit, and yet others, grow to provide shade. We are like trees. When we are in our mother's womb, no one can see us growing, but we are there. And all the potential for our lives is present in that moment, small as we are at that point in our lives, we are who we are now because of what we've gone through. And just knowing that, makes me sad to read about the increasing numbers of abortions that occur. People have forgotten that all the potential for life comes from something small, seemingly insignificant, seemingly lifeless.
Recently, I read about how scientists managed to grow a date palm plant from a 2000 year old seed. How amazing.

6) Leaving
Bad habits are hard to break. But sometimes, the best thing to do is to find a new way of doing things, to leave the things that are not good for us. This song is about making the decision to start anew, to do things right, to leave the bad situations behind.

7) Scars (Stronger For Life)
Scars form whenever we hurt ourselves, if we have an injury to our bodies, our bodies respond by healing, and often, forming scar tissues over the wounds. The scar tissue is usually thicker and stronger than our normal skin. In our lives, we often encounter events, or situations with people that hurt us, for eg, a lot of us have gone through the painful feeling of a break-up with a girlfriend or boyfriend, or the loss of a loved one, or the pain of being ill. I believe that when we go through the sad and painful events in our lives, we eventually heal, and we become stronger as a result of the challenges we experience.

8) City of Angels
I've lived in Los Angeles for 8 years and it's always struck me as a very interesting city.
It is a city of contradictions, a city of opposites, a lot of glitz and glamour juxtaposed with poverty and grit. It is a city in a desert, and in many ways, the desert is often not just a physical, geographical reality. I feel that the desert, has a deeper, metaphorical meaning in this city. People are often thirsty, hungry for love. Of course, this is a reality everywhere in the world, but it feels more intense here in Los Angeles.
So I thought I'd pour my thoughts into a song.

9) My Little Nephew
The first time I held my nephew in my arms was a wonderful moment of realization that I am now an aunty to my brother's son. Children change so fast as they grow and my nephew lives in Singapore, as does the rest of my family. I on the other hand, live far away in Los Angeles and despite my wanting to be able to see him change and grow, and to be around for family gatherings such as his birthday, it's hard to only see him now and then, whenever I go back to Singapore. I sat down at the piano one day, and wrote a song for him.

10) Slow Down
It's hard to watch my grandparents getting older, and walking a little slower as the years go by. I thought about how life starts off with kids, teenagers and young adults rushing around with the exuberance of youth, and how, as we get older, we all slow down.
I also thought about how sometimes, working adults run around so much, focused on careers, on all the things in life that seem so important, that they lose sight of the really important things in life, things like time with the family, for instance.

11) Green-Eyed Monster
The term 'Green-Eyed Monster' is used to describe someone who is jealous about somebody else's success.
I think most of us have been through an occasion where we find ourselves comparing our own achievements with those of our peers. Sometimes, in comparing ourselves with others, we end up feeling bitter and resentful, and that is not the way that we should be feeling. I wanted to write a song to tell myself that there is no use in comparing myself to others. I have my own story to tell. I have my own path to walk. No one else can walk the path I am meant to walk. So I should not compare my own life with others. It is a waste of energy and time. So I decided to write a song about this.

12) On My Way
I've travelled a lot over the past few years, to Singapore, Chicago, San Francisco, Washington, Maine, Philadelphia, etc. as I'm often going to various cities to perform my music. Most of the time, I'm on the road by myself, driving to various venues. Sometimes I get lost, sometimes, I get into traffic jams…
I think that life is like being on a journey. We have a final destination to get to. We're all travelers on this road of life. I think that life is like a winding road where it's hard sometimes to figure out where the road is going to go, and sometimes it's easy to get lost and confused. 'On My Way' is a song of hope and encouragement, that no matter how far the journey is, every little step that we take, brings us closer to our final destination, and as long as we keep on walking that journey, we will get where we need to be eventually.

13) 33
When I turned 33 last year, I thought to myself, that Jesus was 33 when he lived his last year on earth. I thought that it was pretty amazing that I was now the same age as him. So somehow, that made me wonder how it would have been if I had lived during the time of Jesus. Would our paths have crossed? Would we have been friends?
It also got me thinking that some lives are so short, just like Jesus' was, and some lives are much longer. But ultimately it doesn't matter how short or long someone's life was; what matters is that life is lived to the fullest, no matter how much time you are given to live.

14) Shelter (Cherry Blossom Edition)
Even though I listen to mostly English pop music, as a child I often listened to the Chinese pop melodies that my grandmother would play on the radio, and my father would teach me some Asian folk songs. I was inspired to write a Asian-styled piano arrangement to 'Shelter' after listening to Kavin's string arrangement for the song. Lately, I've been experimenting more with pentatonic keys and modes and so, I decided to try an Asian-styled arrangement on the piano. I loved it very much, so we decided to include it in the album because it adds a different, more dramatic feel to the song.

Listening to her album now while writing this... Glad that I bought it, was stunned by her vocal and lovely music in her previous album "Fly Away"... Each song is ministering in a certain way...

The only regret was that I didn't realised she actually came to Singapore for a concert at NUS UCC on 3rd August! What a pity... It would have been a great experience to listen her singing live... Heard it was sold out pretty fast... not surprising at all... What's surprising is to find out only today that she was actually an NUS alumni! Wow... My senior... LOL...

Well, at least I'll be going for 陈绮贞's concert on 29th Sep! 5th row! Yey... =)

Yes... 陈绮贞 is coming Singapore for concert!!

2007-08-07T14:07:00.000+08:00

Yes... She will be having her 2nd concert "A Piece Of Summer" in Singapore on 29th September 2007 at Max Pavilion... Tickets will be selling from 10th August onwards...

Thanks to my friend JJ, who introduced this great singer to me during my JC days, that makes me really enjoy the pure vocal power of 陈绮贞... Listen to her unplugged singing during her 1st mini concert 2 years ago really makes me 听出耳油！！

Recently just bought her "A Piece of Summer" Live Concert in Taiwan CD, never imagined that she would come here so soon to make another concert... So exciting!

http://www.xin.sg/article.php?category=81&article=7885

Mood Swing...

2007-08-06T14:13:00.000+08:00

Taken from wikipedia...

A mood swing is an extreme or rapid change in mood. They are commonly associated with mood disorders, of which the classic example is bipolar disorder (also known as manic depression) and also a major factor in hyperactive or hyperactive/inattentive ADHD. However they should not be confused with these disorders, for they are not the same.

Other causes of mood swings are due to hormonal changes that can temporarily upset brain chemistry, such as during PMS, perimenopause, menopause or puberty. As the hormones involved normalize, these mood swings generally subside on their own.

"Better one handful with tranquillity
than two handfuls with toil
and chasing after the wind."
[Ecclesiastes 4:6]

Some Food for thought...

Quoting from "Heart of the Artist":

We can't control the circumstances that affect out emotions, but we can do wonders for our emotional well-being by having meaningful relationships and dealing with pain and conflict in a healthy way.

- Do you have meaningful relationships?
- Are you paying attention to your emotions and dealing with them, or are you suppressing them?
- Are you dealing with pain and conflict in your life, or are you coping by denying or escaping?

Don't think your life outside of ministry has no bearing on your ministry. When you and I try to get rest, exercise, and have regular devotions, we're doing something that's not only good for ourselves but great for our ministry. A person who is healthy physically, spiritually, and emotionally handles pressure better. They're more apt to better handle disappointment and failure. They're less likely to grumble and complain or be overly competitive. A healthy self always makes for a healthy team.

(end of quote)

I believe this is what God has been reminding me when I read it... I do admit that recently, I am not so healthy in all aspects... Though I am fully aware of them, but I guess I chose not to deal with them & chose to suppress and escape from it, just like the old me...

Please forgive me Father... Thanks for being with me all these while...

"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." [2 Corinthians 12:9]

Audience of One...

2007-07-29T16:16:00.000+08:00

Taken from "The Heart of the Artist"...

AUDIENCE OF ONE
It's such a strong temptation to live for man's applause
But I don't want to buy into the lie
'Cause I know that's not a worthy cause
So to keep things in perspective, I hung a sign up on the wall

The sign is nothing special, but it really says it all
And the sign says

I'll be content to serve an audience of One
Only His approval counts when all is said and done
And this is my prayer, when the race is finally run
I want to hear "Well done"
From the audience of One

When the drive for recognition starts to get the best of me
All I've got to do is look around at the people serving selflessly
And they don't serve for glory, and they're not keeping score
There's a sign that's written on their hearts
A sign I've seen before

I'll be content to serve an audience of One
Only His approval counts when all is said and done
And this is my prayer, when the race is finally run
I want to hear "Well done"
From the audience of One

In the not-too-distant future
When the crowds all fade away
I'll stand alone before my Lord
An this is what I long to say

I'm overjoyed to serve an audience of One
It's what I've been created for ever since day one
And this is my song, as I bow before Your throne
I love to hear "Well done"
From the audience of One

So this will be my prayer, 'til the race is finally run
I want to hear "Well done," I long to hear "Well done"
I want to hear "Well done"
From the audience of One.

-Greg Ferguson-

"Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. " [2 Corinthians 9:7]

Yes... Finally got this book... =)

2007-07-22T23:29:00.000+08:00

This book is "Heart of the Artist" by Rory Noland... Recommended by kinwee during his creative arts sessions... Finally managed to get myself a copy yesterday after service... Yey!

To find out more about this book, visit www.heartoftheartist.org

What a rough day! =/

2007-07-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Since it's rough, I don't really have the energy to describe much for the day...

In short:

Happily went to SSDC to take my Basic Theory Test with my friend WTC at 1.45pm. The test starts at 2pm, when registering in the room, I suddenly realised I didn't bring along my IC, and they don't allow student pass for identification... Just as I was panicking of what to do, I thought I may still got a chance to rush back amk to get the IC and be late for ard 10-15min(better than not taking at all), so I immediately tried calling back home to hope get my father to bring my IC to mrt for me...

Guess what? My phone suddenly broke down too! I can't make any phone calls or send any sms at the moment... Time slowly past until I realised it's too late for me to do anything already... Feeling rather frustrated about my situation, I returned home sadly... =(

So the rest of my day ended up being at home and sulking on my bed, SIANSATION all over my face... Initial plan of catching a movie after passing the test was destroyed totally...

Imagine staying at home for almost 2 weeks already, finally got the chance to go out for a day, end up went back home to sulk... terrible feeling sia...

Felt a bit sorry that I showed a bit of bad attitude towards my parent today... Thank God i didn't vent out any anger on them, just honestly telling them that I am feeling rather down and need sometime alone...

Overall, it's really a bad day for me... =/

Yey... Rainbow... I just love it... =)

2007-07-13T14:59:00.000+08:00

Minesweeper Ranking Top 10!

2007-07-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

01. ZZ 13380

02. azu 11859

03. 12R 11830

04. ZZ 11310

05. CCT 10950

06. azu 10450

07. mas 9960

08. 356 9389

09. sun 9290

10. eln 9240

(as at 11.20pm 12/7/07)

Yey... Managed to climb up the 'ladder' within a day! Afterall, my minesweeper logic skill is quite pro ok... Keke... (Btw, ZZ & CCT is me... Hehe..)

Anyway, in case anyone reading my blog is interested in minesweeper also, feel free to challenge and send ur score to be in the top 10!

Some quick observation of the game:

- it's not time-based, i.e. you don't gain more points by solving faster! So take ur time!
- the 'flag' function don't affect the points as well, just available for u be make marking
- the score seems to be based on no. of clicks u take to clear each stage, apparently, the more clicks, the higher score, regardless of how big u clear the area in each click... (weird)
- the total no. of mines for each round seems random, but should be incremental, starting btw 10-11 and slowly increase...
- each round should earn u around 1000 plus point, so to reach ard 12000, u need to clear at least 6-7 rounds...
- WARNING: there a bug which will not allow u to progress to next round even after u clear the present round! (which can be quite irritating if it happens at your 5th rounds and above!)
- the mouse pointer is very sensitive, as the play area is small, and instead of our usual top left point of the arrow, it uses a downwards arrow which is a bit user-unfriendly.. (IMHO)

So, have fun trying out! I shall check every now and then to see if my position is being overtaken! LOL... =p

Will continue to strive for top score! Lol...

2007-07-12T19:04:00.001+08:00

Again, being addicted to the new minesweeper game... Haha... But realised there are some bugs during my play, so it'll be really challenging to squeeze into the topscore list with all these bugs and unfriendly mouse pointer!!

Personally highscore currently: 6200

Shall try harder again soon! It's so like "一百秒不NG"! Many element of luck involved here... =p

Stop for dinner time... Keke...

Cool, minesweeper in my blog!

2007-07-12T18:12:00.000+08:00

Haha, thanks to Jesse who introduced this cool site that can put interesting stuff in our personal website... Now got new goal, to get my name into the top score list! LOL... =p

http://blog-apart.com/index.html

Do check on it yourself!

The Cross - Jesus in China

2007-07-12T17:47:00.001+08:00

Just wanna recommend this DVD... My brother lent me this DVD one year plus ago, and whenever I watched it, I felt so encouraged and touched. It had never failed to lift me up when I was down. Some months ago, I wanted to watch it again but realised that I couldn't find it, and I forgotten if it was with someone else ('cos I lent to someone before)... But thank God, after the spring cleaning in my room yesterday, I found it back! So happy!

So watched it again this afternoon, so touched again, even after dunno how many times I had watched over the year. And I was so glad that my father managed to sit down and watched a chapter of it with me! I really prayed that whatever he had watched from the documentary God will make the seed that's already in his heart continue to grow. Very excited... =)

"I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow. So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow." [Corinthians 3:6-7]

Do watch this DVD if you have the chance, it's really inspiring and encouraging! (can borrow from me! =p )

It's spring cleaning day for my room! =p

2007-07-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

Yes, today was a satisfying day for me because I managed to take the effort to give my room a big spring cleaning all by myself!

What's the reason behind it? Because my caregroup would be using my room in the evening time for prayer meeting... Of course, another main reason would be also that my holiday was coming to an end, and it would be a good time to tidy up my room and rearranged my books & notes to prepare for a new semester again...

All my family members (especially my father) were totally amazed by my actions and diligence, it was because I was known to be very lazy and don't have the habit of doing household chores like cleaning (unless being forced to!). Initially, I guessed they all had the impression that such sudden change in my action was probably due to some people of importance going to visit me. But they thought it the wrong way, they thought I had a girlfriend and was inviting her to our home! LOL... Well, 这也难怪他们会这样想, 毕竟这么懒的我, 怎么会自动自发地整理房间来了?!
But I explained to them that it's my caregroup that was going to come in the evening. My father commented that if that's the case, then next time ask them to come more often so that I would be more motivated to tidy up my room consistently... Haha..

During my process of cleaning up my room, I asked myself this question too, "Why do I have the urgency to want to clean up my room?" After some thought, I realised it's because I knew that somebody would be coming to my room soon, therefore I got a bit of 临时抱佛脚 and used the whole afternoon to do the spring cleaning... God seems to tell me something...

"Now, brothers, about times and dates we do not need to write to you, for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night." [1 Thessalonians 5:1-2]
"Behold, I come like a thief! Blessed is he who stays awake and keeps his clothes with him, so that he may not go naked and be shamefully exposed." [Revelation 16:15]
"Remember, therefore, what you have received and heard; obey it, and repent. But if you do not wake up, I will come like a thief, and you will not know at what time I will come to you." [Revelation 3:3]

In our spiritual walk with God, we are also taught to be always on guard with our lives, because just like what the bible says, we will not know exactly when Jesus is coming back again. But it is certain that He will come back as He promised in the bible.

One question to ask ourselves is that "Do we have the habit to 'tidy up' our heart from time to time to prevent cobweb & dust to pile up & make us unhealthy?"

I always said, men are forgetful creatures! We all need constant reminders about the important things in our lives. And of course, God, being our Creator, understands this very well. That's what He teaches us ways to keep ourselves reminded about our identities in Christ. Things like going to church, singing praise & worship, attending caregroup, partaking Holy Communion, etc... All these helped us to remember the love and grace from God! However, christianity is never about rules and regulations, it's ultimately a personal relationship between God and yourself...

Thank God for His wonderful reminder... =)

"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." [Proverbs 4:23]
"And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." [Philippians 4:7]

( No photo to show the before/after of my room. But it's much much cleaner & neater now for sure! =p )

Wanted to post something but can't gather my thoughts...

2007-07-11T01:17:00.000+08:00

That's right... Whole day many things went through in my mind while I was reading books, playing games, watching tv, etc... Thought of blogging some thoughts but stared blankly at the laptop screen for awhile at the end of the day, can't compile it nicely to record it down... Haiz...

"When the oceans rise and thunders roar,

I will soar with You above the storm.

Father, You are King over the flood,

I will be still and know You are God"

Have mercy on me, Lord...

Finally.... After so long... =P

2007-07-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

二零零七年七月八日

晚上十一点正

拖了一年多的Project 终于完成了! ( 好有成就感... )

(对不起, 久等了!)

"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." [1 Thes 5:16-18]

Don't mean to be gross... put a small one size instead..

2007-07-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

( Day 4 Snake... *Shiver* )

Check out how Mel I am... =p

2007-07-05T22:14:00.000+08:00

http://www.oneishy.com/personality/results/19229f4c2
(Quite shocked it's not over 80%... HAHA... Anyway, the test are quite a rough one... so nvm... I still declare myself over 80% Mel... LOL!)

Some Quiz to kill time...

2007-07-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

What one word best describes you?

You Are Benevolent
Generous, Kind, Compassionate, Caring - You live by the rule "to give is better than to receive". If a friend needed help, you'd be willing to jump in and do whatever you can.

How do you compare?
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What is your best quality?

Moral
You are an all around decent person. Your morals are very important to you. You make a good friend because you are very loyal.

How do you compare?
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What Lord of the Rings charater are you?

Gandalf
You are wise and intelligent, and can see things from many different perspectives. Although people very often don't know what you are thinking, everyone is comfortable around you. You are willing to sacrifice yourself for the good of everyone else.

How do you compare?
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Are you a good Girlfriend/Boyfriend??

Loyal Lover
You are a loyal love. You will stand by your mate's side through thick or thin. Hopefully your signifigant other knows they have a great catch. Just be careful not to come off to clingy, this may make you single sooner then you think...

How do you compare?
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What Is Your Inner Desire?

Acceptance
Your inner desire is acceptance. You are either a loner or have very few friends. All you truely want is to find at least one person who truely cares about and accepts you, but have so far failed to find them. Have hope though, eventually you will fulfill this desire.

How do you compare?
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OUCH! (Warning: May be gross to some!)

2007-07-03T20:32:00.001+08:00

Snake Attack!

(Sorry, didn't make extra effort to censor the photo...)

Closer look at the front part

(Can't take the back part, but can imagine right?)

Enduring the pain... =...(

Are sick or in pain?

2007-07-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

Psalm 6

For the director of music. With stringed instruments. According to sheminith.

A psalm of David.

O Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger

or discipline me in your waith.

Be merciful to me, Lord, for I am faint;

O Lord, heal me, for my bones are in agony.

My soul is in anguish.

How long, O Lord, how long?

Turn, O Lord, and deliever me;

save me because of your unfailing love.

No one remembers you when he is dead.

Who praises you from the grave?

I am worn out from groaning;

all night long I flood my bed with weeping

and drench my counch with tears.

My eyes grow weak with sorrow;

they fail because of my foes.

Away from me, all you who do evil,

for the Lord has heard my weeping.

The Lord has heard my cry for mercy;

the Lord accepts my prayer.

All the enemies will be ashamed and dismayed;

they will turn back in sudden disgrace.

我生'蛇'了... 好痛哦....

"Hey, what happen to you? Are you feeling better?"

2007-07-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

Haha... Seems like my physical body haven been doing so well over the past 2 mths... Guessed I have to give a update to all who are not too sure of what really happened to me... (To those who dunno what I am talking about, GOOD! 'cos it's over already...)

Exactly one month ago, 2nd July, I went Tan Tock Seng Hospital (TTSH) A&E due to a 4 days of high fever, vomit and diarrhea... After taking blood test and stuff, my blood platelet level was as low as 74 (i think), which is way lower than normal range or 150-400... So the conclusion was I kanna dengue, so I was admitted to CDC Ward straight after... During the stay, I have to take drip and blood test everyday (which means injections!). I was instructed to take as much fluid intake as possible to have a faster recovery. (can imagine how many times i have to visit the toilet for that...) My appetite started to come back and my fever went off... After a 4 days of stay in CDC, I was finally discharged with 1 week of MC to start home and rest until my blood platelet level rise back within the normal range...

Thank God, 2 weeks after my discharge (with proper rest and stuff at home), I went to the polyclinic and took a blood test and my results are good.

但是, 一波未平, 一波又起... 祸不单行, there are signs of chest pain here and there ever since... Initially, I thought it was just some muscle ache after long time of resting and so i kinda ignored it all along... until 2 more weeks, i sensed that maybe something is wrong somewhere, so my parent decided to take me to my family doctor for a check up... (Why my parent got so worried abt me is due to a similar case happened to me back in my NS days...)

Flashback: I was undergoing platoon field camp during my OCS training days... During one of the usual 'tekan' sessions, I over exerted myself until I couldn't take the physical punishment and i asked to fall out to rest... I got breathless and my heart was pumping hard and fast... The medic attended me after 30min and still found my pulse very fast.
"Need to go Medical Centre" he said...
So I thought, maybe it was a good thing to 'siam' the 'siong' training then... Little did i know... Upon reaching medical centre, more medic came and took so checking on me, including ECG and got an abnormal report.
"Need to go A&E" they said...
So my whole day was spent travelling from camp site to Medical Centre, queuing for check-up and waiting for report, travelling to A&E and waited and waited and waited again...
"Need to refer you to heart specialist" they said...
And some of you may know, that's what caused me to be Out-Of-Course(OOC) from OCS and my remaining interesting life in army...

So, my parents got worried that it may be my heart problem again that cause chest pain, so went to family doc...

Family Doctor checked and said, "ECG slightly abnormal, better go A&E in case"
Go to TTSH A&E (again) and took blood test and stuff, "We will need to admit you to ICU", said the doctor.
"Huh?"
"We believed that your situation is serious enough to be put under close observation."
Shocking indeed, I was the 1st one kanna shocked, subsequently my parent, then my brother, then those who received sms from my brother, and then the rest who heard from them... (Sorry if that cause u a panic, it was unintentional!)

So I was admitted to ICU ward that night, with no handphone to communicate with anyone, I just lied on the bed with all the machines and tubes running all over me... (that makes me real sick..) Some of you were lucky enough to catch a sight of my situation in ICU the following day, for those who never, use your imagination... (something like the dying old man in the 'whatever/anything' drink commercial...) I guessed the most unbearable part abt the stay in ICU is the loss of communication with the outside world! Seriously, I really felt like dying without my handphone around... So many people I need to contact due to my sudden disability to help in things and yet I can't let them know...

But thank God, I only spent one nite in the ICU (and the cold air-con)... And I also experienced some of the ICU treatment for the patients... (ask me in person for details..) I was transfered to general ward the next day afternoon, with no more tubes on me! The doctor concluded that there is no heart attack or heart problem, but rather, a virus infection on the protective sag around my heart which has caused the chest pain. The virus is highly suspected to be from the dengue fever.

And, as there is currently still no cure for dengue virus, I was only issued pain-killers to relieve my chest pain and basically waiting for my body to recover by itself... Hence, I am discharged again after 4 days to rest back home... Given 2 weeks MC this time... No physical exercise to be done within next 3 mths... which means i may got to miss AHM this year... =(

So here I am, resting at home and writing this report of my whole hospital incident to you, whoever missed the 'show' or whoever curious to know the details...

Just wanna thanks all of you who have sent your sms concerns to me over these period of time, not forgetting those who had visited me in the hospital... Really appreciated that...

And sorry once again to all the people whom I can't help out in the things I promised to do for this week...

And for those who are still in the shock or dunno i already discharged, be assured now that I am still fine! Just need to endure a bit of chest pain for a few more days while resting at home b4 I will be recovered! So don't worry...

If you really worried and wanna pay me a visit to be safe, can contact me to arrange a time to come my house and visit me... LOL... But it won't be necessary, unless there you are really free and have some catching up to do with me... Hehe... =p

Moody...

2007-06-27T03:34:00.000+08:00

今天忽然有一股冲动, 想要出国散心...

可能是最近心情有点低落, 对自己该做的事情有些压力吧... =/

"Sometimes... being mel can be so tiring & unbearable..."

zhenzhong 小弟's simple blog

是逞強或堅強...

属灵生日快乐~

Psalm 73:21-26

For Good (from Wicked musical)

感触...

Corrinne May - Everything in Its Time

慌...

Something Inspiring with what Blender can do...

One of my Blender Modeling Learning progress...

Random post...

Introducing the new upcoming local singer group "插班生 The Freshman"!!!

Something about you by Corrinne May...

It's the 5th...

Ecclesiastes 2:1-11 (FAV - Facebook Applications Version)

Cool stuff...

祝我生日快乐...

Quick post....

Thank you Lord...

Worship...

Love...

Can you spot the difference?

My Machinima! =)

This blog is not yet abandoned...

Try the demo... Helping my friend to play-test...

Jeremiah 17:9-10 (New International Version)

以 弗 所 書 6:13-18

2 months without updates....

From Ravi Zacharias's website...

Semester 7...

Random thoughts...

Unsettled Mind...

Timely encouragement...

More movie reviews...

Philippians 3:12-16...

More movie reviews... (brief comments)

New Post... (Finally..)

I got a part-time job! (Finally!)

Sorry for no updates...

Exam Period...

My CS5245 Video Project...

Psalm 6...

Psalm 6

O LORD, Deliver My Life

To the choirmaster: with stringed instruments; according to The Sheminith. A Psalm of David.

Quality Time...

Random thoughts...

Self-Diagnosis Result...

Tough Times...

My niece is just too cute....

Very Nice Canto Worship Song!!

Dragon Ball revisited...

Yet another personality test...

Short Term Mission trip to Hope Ipoh... [280208-020308]

Gone for STM... back on Sunday! [02-03-2008]

Busy? OK... Hurried? Not OK!

Sorry for no updates again...

<功夫灌篮> 新加坡首映会!

Sorry no updates...

Essential Brew @ Holland Village...

First day of semester...

Last Day before Semester starts again!

Vexille

New blog skin! Woohoo!!

Why - Nicole Nordeman (illustrated)

A fun day of activities.... Yey!

Reflections of 2007...

Mother Birthday Celebration...

Results of Semester I 07/08...

祝我生日快乐...

Flash back of Semester 5...

Rowan Atkinson is totally awesome!

Another semester over!!!

《第一次的亲密接触》

Another Personality Test...Haha

A Blessed Story...

How to cope with Depression?

Steps

Tips

Warnings

以弗所書 6:13-18