Sunday, July 29, 2007
4:16 PM
Audience of One...
Taken from "The Heart of the Artist"...
AUDIENCE OF ONE
It's such a strong temptation to live for man's applause
But I don't want to buy into the lie
'Cause I know that's not a worthy cause
So to keep things in perspective, I hung a sign up on the wall
The sign is nothing special, but it really says it all
And the sign says
I'll be content to serve an audience of One
Only His approval counts when all is said and done
And this is my prayer, when the race is finally run
I want to hear "Well done"
From the audience of One
When the drive for recognition starts to get the best of me
All I've got to do is look around at the people serving selflessly
And they don't serve for glory, and they're not keeping score
There's a sign that's written on their hearts
A sign I've seen before
I'll be content to serve an audience of One
Only His approval counts when all is said and done
And this is my prayer, when the race is finally run
I want to hear "Well done"
From the audience of One
In the not-too-distant future
When the crowds all fade away
I'll stand alone before my Lord
An this is what I long to say
I'm overjoyed to serve an audience of One
It's what I've been created for ever since day one
And this is my song, as I bow before Your throne
I love to hear "Well done"
From the audience of One
So this will be my prayer, 'til the race is finally run
I want to hear "Well done," I long to hear "Well done"
I want to hear "Well done"
From the audience of One.
-Greg Ferguson-
"Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. " [2 Corinthians 9:7]
Labels: audience of one
Sunday, July 22, 2007
11:29 PM
Yes... Finally got this book... =)
This book is "Heart of the Artist" by Rory Noland... Recommended by kinwee during his creative arts sessions... Finally managed to get myself a copy yesterday after service... Yey!
To find out more about this book, visit
www.heartoftheartist.orgLabels: heart of the artist
Monday, July 16, 2007
11:32 PM
What a rough day! =/
Haiz... Since it's rough, I don't really have the energy to describe much for the day...
In short:
Happily went to SSDC to take my Basic Theory Test with my friend WTC at 1.45pm. The test starts at 2pm, when registering in the room, I suddenly realised I didn't bring along my IC, and they don't allow student pass for identification... Just as I was panicking of what to do, I thought I may still got a chance to rush back amk to get the IC and be late for ard 10-15min(better than not taking at all), so I immediately tried calling back home to hope get my father to bring my IC to mrt for me...
Guess what? My phone suddenly broke down too! I can't make any phone calls or send any sms at the moment... Time slowly past until I realised it's too late for me to do anything already... Feeling rather frustrated about my situation, I returned home sadly... =(
So the rest of my day ended up being at home and sulking on my bed, SIANSATION all over my face... Initial plan of catching a movie after passing the test was destroyed totally...
Imagine staying at home for almost 2 weeks already, finally got the chance to go out for a day, end up went back home to sulk... terrible feeling sia...
Felt a bit sorry that I showed a bit of bad attitude towards my parent today... Thank God i didn't vent out any anger on them, just honestly telling them that I am feeling rather down and need sometime alone...
Overall, it's really a bad day for me... =/
Labels: rough day
Friday, July 13, 2007
2:59 PM
Yey... Rainbow... I just love it... =)
Thursday, July 12, 2007
11:07 PM
Minesweeper Ranking Top 10!
01. ZZ 13380
02. azu 11859
03. 12R 11830
04. ZZ 11310
05. CCT 10950
06. azu 10450
07. mas 9960
08. 356 9389
09. sun 9290
10. eln 9240
(as at 11.20pm 12/7/07)
Yey... Managed to climb up the 'ladder' within a day! Afterall, my minesweeper logic skill is quite pro ok... Keke... (Btw, ZZ & CCT is me... Hehe..)
Anyway, in case anyone reading my blog is interested in minesweeper also, feel free to challenge and send ur score to be in the top 10!
Some quick observation of the game:
- it's not time-based, i.e. you don't gain more points by solving faster! So take ur time!
- the 'flag' function don't affect the points as well, just available for u be make marking
- the score seems to be based on no. of clicks u take to clear each stage, apparently, the more clicks, the higher score, regardless of how big u clear the area in each click... (weird)
- the total no. of mines for each round seems random, but should be incremental, starting btw 10-11 and slowly increase...
- each round should earn u around 1000 plus point, so to reach ard 12000, u need to clear at least 6-7 rounds...
- WARNING: there a bug which will not allow u to progress to next round even after u clear the present round! (which can be quite irritating if it happens at your 5th rounds and above!)
- the mouse pointer is very sensitive, as the play area is small, and instead of our usual top left point of the arrow, it uses a downwards arrow which is a bit user-unfriendly.. (IMHO)
So, have fun trying out! I shall check every now and then to see if my position is being overtaken! LOL... =p
Labels: top score
7:04 PM
Will continue to strive for top score! Lol...
Again, being addicted to the new minesweeper game... Haha... But realised there are some bugs during my play, so it'll be really challenging to squeeze into the topscore list with all these bugs and unfriendly mouse pointer!!
Personally highscore currently: 6200
Shall try harder again soon! It's so like "一百秒不NG"! Many element of luck involved here... =p
Stop for dinner time... Keke...
6:12 PM
Cool, minesweeper in my blog!
Haha, thanks to Jesse who introduced this cool site that can put interesting stuff in our personal website... Now got new goal, to get my name into the top score list! LOL... =p
http://blog-apart.com/index.htmlDo check on it yourself!
Labels: minesweeper
5:47 PM
The Cross - Jesus in China
Just wanna recommend this DVD... My brother lent me this DVD one year plus ago, and whenever I watched it, I felt so encouraged and touched. It had never failed to lift me up when I was down. Some months ago, I wanted to watch it again but realised that I couldn't find it, and I forgotten if it was with someone else ('cos I lent to someone before)... But thank God, after the spring cleaning in my room yesterday, I found it back! So happy!
So watched it again this afternoon, so touched again, even after dunno how many times I had watched over the year. And I was so glad that my father managed to sit down and watched a chapter of it with me! I really prayed that whatever he had watched from the documentary God will make the seed that's already in his heart continue to grow. Very excited... =)
"I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow. So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow." [Corinthians 3:6-7]
Do watch this DVD if you have the chance, it's really inspiring and encouraging! (can borrow from me! =p )
Labels: jesus in china
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
11:31 PM
It's spring cleaning day for my room! =p
Yes, today was a satisfying day for me because I managed to take the effort to give my room a big spring cleaning all by myself!
What's the reason behind it? Because my caregroup would be using my room in the evening time for prayer meeting... Of course, another main reason would be also that my holiday was coming to an end, and it would be a good time to tidy up my room and rearranged my books & notes to prepare for a new semester again...
All my family members (especially my father) were totally amazed by my actions and diligence, it was because I was known to be very lazy and don't have the habit of doing household chores like cleaning (unless being forced to!). Initially, I guessed they all had the impression that such sudden change in my action was probably due to some people of importance going to visit me. But they thought it the wrong way, they thought I had a girlfriend and was inviting her to our home! LOL... Well, 这也难怪他们会这样想, 毕竟这么懒的我, 怎么会自动自发地整理房间来了?!
But I explained to them that it's my caregroup that was going to come in the evening. My father commented that if that's the case, then next time ask them to come more often so that I would be more motivated to tidy up my room consistently... Haha..
During my process of cleaning up my room, I asked myself this question too, "Why do I have the urgency to want to clean up my room?" After some thought, I realised it's because I
knew that somebody would be coming to my room soon, therefore I got a bit of 临时抱佛脚 and used the whole afternoon to do the spring cleaning...
God seems to tell me something...
"Now, brothers, about times and dates we do not need to write to you, for you know very well that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night." [1 Thessalonians 5:1-2]
"Behold, I come like a thief! Blessed is he who stays awake and keeps his clothes with him, so that he may not go naked and be shamefully exposed." [Revelation 16:15]
"Remember, therefore, what you have received and heard; obey it, and repent. But if you do not wake up, I will come like a thief, and you will not know at what time I will come to you." [Revelation 3:3]
In our spiritual walk with God, we are also taught to be always on guard with our lives, because just like what the bible says, we will not know exactly when Jesus is coming back again. But it is certain that
He will come back as He promised in the bible.
One question to ask ourselves is that "Do we have the habit to 'tidy up' our heart from time to time to prevent cobweb & dust to pile up & make us unhealthy?"
I always said, men are forgetful creatures! We all need constant reminders about the important things in our lives. And of course, God, being our Creator, understands this very well. That's what He teaches us ways to keep ourselves reminded about our identities in Christ. Things like going to church, singing praise & worship, attending caregroup, partaking Holy Communion, etc... All these helped us to remember the love and grace from God! However, christianity is never about rules and regulations, it's ultimately a personal relationship between God and yourself...
Thank God for His wonderful reminder... =)
"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." [Proverbs 4:23]
"And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." [Philippians 4:7]
( No photo to show the before/after of my room. But it's much much cleaner & neater now for sure! =p )Labels: spring cleaning
1:17 AM
Wanted to post something but can't gather my thoughts...
That's right... Whole day many things went through in my mind while I was reading books, playing games, watching tv, etc... Thought of blogging some thoughts but stared blankly at the laptop screen for awhile at the end of the day, can't compile it nicely to record it down... Haiz...
"When the oceans rise and thunders roar,
I will soar with You above the storm.
Father, You are King over the flood,
I will be still and know You are God"
Have mercy on me, Lord...
Sunday, July 08, 2007
11:26 PM
Finally.... After so long... =P
二零零七年七月八日
晚上十一点正
拖了一年多的Project 终于完成了! ( 好有成就感... )
(
对不起, 久等了!)
"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." [1 Thes 5:16-18]Labels: puzzle
Thursday, July 05, 2007
11:17 PM
Don't mean to be gross... put a small one size instead..
( Day 4 Snake... *Shiver* )
Labels: 'snake'
10:14 PM
Check out how Mel I am... =p
http://www.oneishy.com/personality/results/19229f4c2 (Quite shocked it's not over 80%... HAHA... Anyway, the test are quite a rough one... so nvm... I still declare myself over 80% Mel... LOL!)
Labels: personality type
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
11:08 PM
Some Quiz to kill time...
8:32 PM
OUCH! (Warning: May be gross to some!)
Snake Attack!
(Sorry, didn't make extra effort to censor the photo...)
Closer look at the front part
(Can't take the back part, but can imagine right?)
Enduring the pain... =...(
Labels: 'snake'
Monday, July 02, 2007
10:46 PM
Are sick or in pain?
Psalm 6
For the director of music. With stringed instruments. According to sheminith.
A psalm of David.
O Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger
or discipline me in your waith.
Be merciful to me, Lord, for I am faint;
O Lord, heal me, for my bones are in agony.
My soul is in anguish.
How long, O Lord, how long?
Turn, O Lord, and deliever me;
save me because of your unfailing love.
No one remembers you when he is dead.
Who praises you from the grave?
I am worn out from groaning;
all night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my counch with tears.
My eyes grow weak with sorrow;
they fail because of my foes.
Away from me, all you who do evil,
for the Lord has heard my weeping.
The Lord has heard my cry for mercy;
the Lord accepts my prayer.
All the enemies will be ashamed and dismayed;
they will turn back in sudden disgrace.
我生'蛇'了... 好痛哦....
Labels: psalm 6, sick
Sunday, July 01, 2007
11:40 PM
"Hey, what happen to you? Are you feeling better?"
Haha... Seems like my physical body haven been doing so well over the past 2 mths... Guessed I have to give a update to all who are not too sure of what really happened to me... (To those who dunno what I am talking about, GOOD! 'cos it's over already...)
Exactly one month ago, 2nd July, I went Tan Tock Seng Hospital (TTSH) A&E due to a 4 days of high fever, vomit and diarrhea... After taking blood test and stuff, my blood platelet level was as low as 74 (i think), which is way lower than normal range or 150-400... So the conclusion was I kanna dengue, so I was admitted to CDC Ward straight after... During the stay, I have to take drip and blood test everyday (which means injections!). I was instructed to take as much fluid intake as possible to have a faster recovery. (can imagine how many times i have to visit the toilet for that...) My appetite started to come back and my fever went off... After a 4 days of stay in CDC, I was finally discharged with 1 week of MC to start home and rest until my blood platelet level rise back within the normal range...
Thank God, 2 weeks after my discharge (with proper rest and stuff at home), I went to the polyclinic and took a blood test and my results are good.
但是, 一波未平, 一波又起... 祸不单行, there are signs of chest pain here and there ever since... Initially, I thought it was just some muscle ache after long time of resting and so i kinda ignored it all along... until 2 more weeks, i sensed that maybe something is wrong somewhere, so my parent decided to take me to my family doctor for a check up... (Why my parent got so worried abt me is due to a similar case happened to me back in my NS days...)
Flashback: I was undergoing platoon field camp during my OCS training days... During one of the usual 'tekan' sessions, I over exerted myself until I couldn't take the physical punishment and i asked to fall out to rest... I got breathless and my heart was pumping hard and fast... The medic attended me after 30min and still found my pulse very fast.
"Need to go Medical Centre" he said...
So I thought, maybe it was a good thing to 'siam' the 'siong' training then... Little did i know... Upon reaching medical centre, more medic came and took so checking on me, including ECG and got an abnormal report.
"Need to go A&E" they said...
So my whole day was spent travelling from camp site to Medical Centre, queuing for check-up and waiting for report, travelling to A&E and waited and waited and waited again...
"Need to refer you to heart specialist" they said...
And some of you may know, that's what caused me to be Out-Of-Course(OOC) from OCS and my remaining interesting life in army...
So, my parents got worried that it may be my heart problem again that cause chest pain, so went to family doc...
Family Doctor checked and said, "ECG slightly abnormal, better go A&E in case"
Go to TTSH A&E (again) and took blood test and stuff, "We will need to admit you to ICU", said the doctor.
"Huh?"
"We believed that your situation is serious enough to be put under close observation."
Shocking indeed, I was the 1st one kanna shocked, subsequently my parent, then my brother, then those who received sms from my brother, and then the rest who heard from them... (Sorry if that cause u a panic, it was unintentional!)
So I was admitted to ICU ward that night, with no handphone to communicate with anyone, I just lied on the bed with all the machines and tubes running all over me... (that makes me real sick..) Some of you were lucky enough to catch a sight of my situation in ICU the following day, for those who never, use your imagination... (something like the dying old man in the 'whatever/anything' drink commercial...) I guessed the most unbearable part abt the stay in ICU is the loss of communication with the outside world! Seriously, I really felt like dying without my handphone around... So many people I need to contact due to my sudden disability to help in things and yet I can't let them know...
But thank God, I only spent one nite in the ICU (and the cold air-con)... And I also experienced some of the ICU treatment for the patients... (ask me in person for details..) I was transfered to general ward the next day afternoon, with no more tubes on me! The doctor concluded that there is no heart attack or heart problem, but rather, a virus infection on the protective sag around my heart which has caused the chest pain. The virus is highly suspected to be from the dengue fever.
And, as there is currently still no cure for dengue virus, I was only issued pain-killers to relieve my chest pain and basically waiting for my body to recover by itself... Hence, I am discharged again after 4 days to rest back home... Given 2 weeks MC this time... No physical exercise to be done within next 3 mths... which means i may got to miss AHM this year... =(
So here I am, resting at home and writing this report of my whole hospital incident to you, whoever missed the 'show' or whoever curious to know the details...
Just wanna thanks all of you who have sent your sms concerns to me over these period of time, not forgetting those who had visited me in the hospital... Really appreciated that...
And sorry once again to all the people whom I can't help out in the things I promised to do for this week...
And for those who are still in the shock or dunno i already discharged, be assured now that I am still fine! Just need to endure a bit of chest pain for a few more days while resting at home b4 I will be recovered! So don't worry...
If you really worried and wanna pay me a visit to be safe, can contact me to arrange a time to come my house and visit me... LOL... But it won't be necessary, unless there you are really free and have some catching up to do with me... Hehe... =p
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