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Corrinne May - Everything in Its Time
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    Saturday, August 25, 2007
    12:51 AM

    Does Evil Exist?

    Taken from a brother's blog, very interesting! (Thanks Steven!)


    A university professor challenged his students with this question. Did God create everything that exists?

    A student bravely replied, "Yes, he did!"

    "God created everything?" The professor asked.

    "Yes, sir," the student replied.

    The professor answered, "If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principal that our works define who we are then God is evil."

    The student became quiet before such an answer.

    The professor was quite pleased with himself and boasted to the students that he had proven once more that the Christian faith was a myth.

    Another student raised his hand and said, "Can I ask you a question professor?"

    "Of course," replied the professor.

    The student stood up and asked, "Professor, does cold exist?"

    "What kind of question is this? Of course, it exists. Have you never been cold?"

    The students snickered at the young man's question.

    The young man replied, "In fact sir, cold does not exist. According to the laws of physics, what we consider cold is in reality the absence of heat. Everybody or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-460 degrees F) is the total absence of heat; all matter becomes inert and incapable of reaction at that temperature. Cold does not exist. We have created this word to describe how we feel if we have no heat."

    The student continued. "Professor, does darkness exist?"

    The professor responded, "Of course it does."

    The student replied, "Once again you are wrong sir, darkness does not exist either. Darkness is in reality the absence of light. Light we can study, but not darkness. In fact we can use Newton's prism to break white light into many colors and study the various wavelengths of each color. You cannot measure darkness. A simple ray of light can break into a world of darkness and illuminate it. How can you know how dark a certain space is? You measure the amount of light present. Isn't this correct? Darkness is a term used by man to describe what happens when there is no light present."

    Finally the young man asked the professor. "Sir, does evil exist?"

    Now uncertain, the professor responded, "Of course as I have already said. We see it every day. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil."

    To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is not like faith, or love that exist just as does light and heat. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light."

    The professor sat down.

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    Tuesday, August 21, 2007
    1:46 AM

    Start of new semester...

    It has been one week plus since the semester started... So far so good...

    Describe a bit of the modules I am taking this semester...

    CS2105 - Introduction to Computer Networks

    The only level 2000 module this semester, nothing much to say about this 'cos it's a required module for all SoC students, meaning I have to take it whether I like it or not. I don't particularly have much interest in it, but I shall try to find some useful knowledge which will motivate me to get through it without struggle... (Thank God Yizhong is taking too! Hehe..)

    CS3240 - Human-Computer Interaction

    My major requirement, but it's a topic I have interest with... But I have fear for this module after going through the 1st lecture. How should I put it? Let's just say that it was a challenge for me to stay focused and interested by the way the lecturer speaks... (Get the rough idea?) Anyway, I shall try not to make that as an excuse for not paying attention. It just means that I need to spend more effort on it during my own time... (Too bad no webcast... )

    CS3243 - Foundations of Artificial Intelligence

    This is not my required module, I just decided to take it because I have not much choice of modules to take this sem. But I thank God for making the decision to take this module, because it's really interesting and the lecturer is very friendly and I personally enjoyed his style of teaching... Moreover, this module will be helpful if I want to go into the gaming industry as gaming plays a major field of studies in AI. Looking forward for the challenging but interesting projects... (got a chance to build LEGO robots, cool!)

    CS4213 - Game Development

    My first level 4000 module! (How daring... LOL) But this is something I really excited about, after taking game related modules last sem (intro to gaming & game design I) & discovered my joy in studying them... Though I foresee higher challenges in this module, but I would still like to believe that as I hold on to the interest, it can put me through eventually... (as shown in last sem!) But definitely more hardwork will be required from me, I will 'jiayou'... =p

    LAB1201 - Bahasa Indonesia

    The only non-CS module for this semester... Few reasons why I decided to take up this new language:
    1. I lack a 5th module & I want a non-CS module.
    2. I want a module which will not further burden my heavy core workload.
    3. I want a module which I can learn something out of it. (not just to clear MC or study for exam sake)
    4. I have 2 church friends who intend to take it already. (Venetia & Guanzhen)
    5. I always wanted to try a language module, though my top list language has always been Japanese. Then why I don't choose Japanese instead? Because I don't have enough bidding points to get it.
    6. My 2nd sis-in-law is an Indonesian, so it'll be good if I can understand the language to communicate with her. Also, my church has an Indonesian congregation, I feel that it will be beneficial for me if I learn how to speak.
    So in summary, this module sort of meet all my criteria.. =)
    But again, this is the only module which I am learning something totally from scratch, so that's the challenge. This will be the chance to experiment whether am I really 'gifted' in learning language, as passed down by my mother... Keke... Well, we will find out at the end of semester!


    I am tuning back in balancing my time between my studies and other areas in my life. Hope I can still enjoy every bit of this semester! (before I get pinned down by the workload... LOL)
    My physical health is more or less recovered, so I will also be getting back to my routine physical workout soon... Hmmm... still considering in going for the AHM this coming sunday though I didn't sign up... =)


    Sunday, August 12, 2007
    11:20 PM

    Last Day before the start of Semester I AY07/08!

    Yes... Today is the last day of holiday before my Sem V officially starts tomorrow... So, to enjoy the last bit of time I have, I decided to catch 2 movies today! Never tried it before, quite an experience to walk out of cinema and then entered it again immediately for the 2nd show, HAHA!

    I watched <不能说的秘密> & <881>.

    Hmmm... Don't really know how to comment on both shows.... Perhaps I was too critical today, I noticed quite a no. of areas in both shows which I don't really like... But I still will agree that both movies are above average, still enjoyable as a whole...

    In short,



    <不能说的秘密>: very sweet romantic story, but ending abit disappointing...



    <881>: very local taste movie with nice visual as audio elements, but story progress in btw have room for improvements...

    But the songs are really nice, in fact, the music kept ringing in my mind on my way back home until I decided to create the MIDI version of the theme song <一人一半>, which I already loaded in my blog... To listen to the original version, can click here.

    Below are the lyrics:
    <一人一半>

    一人一半 感情不散
    一人一素故 感情才会久

    时光累计 安静的泪滴
    一心去追 爱那么可贵

    这样的人 这样地等
    无畏是等个回应眼神
    为爱翻滚 不计伤痕
    甘心为你一生都浮沉

    这样的人 别笑我蠢
    傻傻的心痛也不觉疼
    就算天冷 就算残忍
    等你想起这没用的人

    一人一半 感情不散
    已经找到爱 为何要离开

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    Saturday, August 11, 2007
    1:37 PM

    Corrinne May latest album: Beautiful Seed

    Quoting from Corrinne May's myspace blog entry...

    Beautiful Seed -The Stories Behind the Album

    Align Center

    This is the stuff that is being printed in the Japanese liner
    notes when 'Beautiful Seed' is released in Japan in September 2007 by S2S/ Major Chord Records.
    Just thought I'd share them with you.


    [SPOILER ALERT] - For those who want to explore the songs by themselves, please don't read any further :)


    As asked by Major Chord Records :Regarding the Japanese liner notes: would you make some comments on each song -- what did you try to express with those songs, what kind of feelings did you have when composing them? Is there any story behind the songs?

    1) Love Song For 1
    I love observing nature. I love looking up at the stars, or the clouds and trees, knowing that the God who created all this beauty also created me. This is a song of gratitude and love.

    2) Shelter
    Friends support and help each other through difficult times. This song is about friendship.
    It is a song to a friend to tell her that I will be here for her through the difficulty she is going through. All she has to do is call me and I will help her in whatever way I can.

    3) On The Side Of Me
    This is a song about the power of love. No matter how unloveable I think I am, there is someone who loves me a lot. Loves me despite all my faults, my failures, despite my bad habits. I think it's wonderful to be loved for who I am, no matter what.

    4) Five Loaves and Two Fishes
    This song is based on my favourite bible story. The story is about how Jesus made a miracle happen by taking five loaves and two fishes offered by a little boy, and using that to feed 5000 people.
    I think it's an amazing story about how, no matter how small we may think about what we have to offer, we should trust that our offerings, our gifts are never wasted. Our gifts and our talents should be treasured for they can be used in many beautiful ways.

    5) Beautiful Seed
    I think people often forget how the smallest, most seemingly insignificant things can have such beautiful possibilities. All it takes is one person to make a difference in this world. People like Mother Teresa, Gandhi and Martin Luther King Jr. testify to this fact. But often, we are so afraid to try, to speak up, or to make a difference.

    I named the album and the song 'Beautiful Seed' because I think that a seed is a wonderful metaphor for our lives. We are all like seeds. Seeds grow unseen in the soil and then sprout, and some seed become the biggest, most majestic trees and others grow to eventually bear wonderful fruit, and yet others, grow to provide shade. We are like trees. When we are in our mother's womb, no one can see us growing, but we are there. And all the potential for our lives is present in that moment, small as we are at that point in our lives, we are who we are now because of what we've gone through. And just knowing that, makes me sad to read about the increasing numbers of abortions that occur. People have forgotten that all the potential for life comes from something small, seemingly insignificant, seemingly lifeless.
    Recently, I read about how scientists managed to grow a date palm plant from a 2000 year old seed. How amazing.


    6) Leaving
    Bad habits are hard to break. But sometimes, the best thing to do is to find a new way of doing things, to leave the things that are not good for us. This song is about making the decision to start anew, to do things right, to leave the bad situations behind.


    7) Scars (Stronger For Life)
    Scars form whenever we hurt ourselves, if we have an injury to our bodies, our bodies respond by healing, and often, forming scar tissues over the wounds. The scar tissue is usually thicker and stronger than our normal skin. In our lives, we often encounter events, or situations with people that hurt us, for eg, a lot of us have gone through the painful feeling of a break-up with a girlfriend or boyfriend, or the loss of a loved one, or the pain of being ill. I believe that when we go through the sad and painful events in our lives, we eventually heal, and we become stronger as a result of the challenges we experience.


    8) City of Angels
    I've lived in Los Angeles for 8 years and it's always struck me as a very interesting city.
    It is a city of contradictions, a city of opposites, a lot of glitz and glamour juxtaposed with poverty and grit. It is a city in a desert, and in many ways, the desert is often not just a physical, geographical reality. I feel that the desert, has a deeper, metaphorical meaning in this city. People are often thirsty, hungry for love. Of course, this is a reality everywhere in the world, but it feels more intense here in Los Angeles.
    So I thought I'd pour my thoughts into a song.

    9) My Little Nephew
    The first time I held my nephew in my arms was a wonderful moment of realization that I am now an aunty to my brother's son. Children change so fast as they grow and my nephew lives in Singapore, as does the rest of my family. I on the other hand, live far away in Los Angeles and despite my wanting to be able to see him change and grow, and to be around for family gatherings such as his birthday, it's hard to only see him now and then, whenever I go back to Singapore. I sat down at the piano one day, and wrote a song for him.

    10) Slow Down
    It's hard to watch my grandparents getting older, and walking a little slower as the years go by. I thought about how life starts off with kids, teenagers and young adults rushing around with the exuberance of youth, and how, as we get older, we all slow down.
    I also thought about how sometimes, working adults run around so much, focused on careers, on all the things in life that seem so important, that they lose sight of the really important things in life, things like time with the family, for instance.


    11) Green-Eyed Monster
    The term 'Green-Eyed Monster' is used to describe someone who is jealous about somebody else's success.
    I think most of us have been through an occasion where we find ourselves comparing our own achievements with those of our peers. Sometimes, in comparing ourselves with others, we end up feeling bitter and resentful, and that is not the way that we should be feeling. I wanted to write a song to tell myself that there is no use in comparing myself to others. I have my own story to tell. I have my own path to walk. No one else can walk the path I am meant to walk. So I should not compare my own life with others. It is a waste of energy and time. So I decided to write a song about this.


    12) On My Way
    I've travelled a lot over the past few years, to Singapore, Chicago, San Francisco, Washington, Maine, Philadelphia, etc. as I'm often going to various cities to perform my music. Most of the time, I'm on the road by myself, driving to various venues. Sometimes I get lost, sometimes, I get into traffic jams…
    I think that life is like being on a journey. We have a final destination to get to. We're all travelers on this road of life. I think that life is like a winding road where it's hard sometimes to figure out where the road is going to go, and sometimes it's easy to get lost and confused. 'On My Way' is a song of hope and encouragement, that no matter how far the journey is, every little step that we take, brings us closer to our final destination, and as long as we keep on walking that journey, we will get where we need to be eventually.


    13) 33
    When I turned 33 last year, I thought to myself, that Jesus was 33 when he lived his last year on earth. I thought that it was pretty amazing that I was now the same age as him. So somehow, that made me wonder how it would have been if I had lived during the time of Jesus. Would our paths have crossed? Would we have been friends?
    It also got me thinking that some lives are so short, just like Jesus' was, and some lives are much longer. But ultimately it doesn't matter how short or long someone's life was; what matters is that life is lived to the fullest, no matter how much time you are given to live.


    14) Shelter (Cherry Blossom Edition)

    Even though I listen to mostly English pop music, as a child I often listened to the Chinese pop melodies that my grandmother would play on the radio, and my father would teach me some Asian folk songs. I was inspired to write a Asian-styled piano arrangement to 'Shelter' after listening to Kavin's string arrangement for the song. Lately, I've been experimenting more with pentatonic keys and modes and so, I decided to try an Asian-styled arrangement on the piano. I loved it very much, so we decided to include it in the album because it adds a different, more dramatic feel to the song.


    Listening to her album now while writing this... Glad that I bought it, was stunned by her vocal and lovely music in her previous album "Fly Away"... Each song is ministering in a certain way...

    The only regret was that I didn't realised she actually came to Singapore for a concert at NUS UCC on 3rd August! What a pity... It would have been a great experience to listen her singing live... Heard it was sold out pretty fast... not surprising at all... What's surprising is to find out only today that she was actually an NUS alumni! Wow... My senior... LOL...


    Well, at least I'll be going for 陈绮贞's concert on 29th Sep! 5th row! Yey... =)

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    Tuesday, August 07, 2007
    2:07 PM

    Yes... 陈绮贞 is coming Singapore for concert!!



    Yes... She will be having her 2nd concert "A Piece Of Summer" in Singapore on 29th September 2007 at Max Pavilion... Tickets will be selling from 10th August onwards...

    Thanks to my friend JJ, who introduced this great singer to me during my JC days, that makes me really enjoy the pure vocal power of 陈绮贞... Listen to her unplugged singing during her 1st mini concert 2 years ago really makes me 听出耳油!!

    Recently just bought her "A Piece of Summer" Live Concert in Taiwan CD, never imagined that she would come here so soon to make another concert... So exciting!

    http://www.xin.sg/article.php?category=81&article=7885

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    Monday, August 06, 2007
    2:13 PM

    Mood Swing...

    Taken from wikipedia...

    A mood swing is an extreme or rapid change in mood. They are commonly associated with mood disorders, of which the classic example is bipolar disorder (also known as manic depression) and also a major factor in hyperactive or hyperactive/inattentive ADHD. However they should not be confused with these disorders, for they are not the same.

    Other causes of mood swings are due to hormonal changes that can temporarily upset brain chemistry, such as during PMS, perimenopause, menopause or puberty. As the hormones involved normalize, these mood swings generally subside on their own.

    "Better one handful with tranquillity
    than two handfuls with toil
    and chasing after the wind."
    [Ecclesiastes 4:6]

    Some Food for thought...

    Quoting from "Heart of the Artist":

    We can't control the circumstances that affect out emotions, but we can do wonders for our emotional well-being by having meaningful relationships and dealing with pain and conflict in a healthy way.
    - Do you have meaningful relationships?
    - Are you paying attention to your emotions and dealing with them, or are you suppressing them?
    - Are you dealing with pain and conflict in your life, or are you coping by denying or escaping?
    Don't think your life outside of ministry has no bearing on your ministry. When you and I try to get rest, exercise, and have regular devotions, we're doing something that's not only good for ourselves but great for our ministry. A person who is healthy physically, spiritually, and emotionally handles pressure better. They're more apt to better handle disappointment and failure. They're less likely to grumble and complain or be overly competitive. A healthy self always makes for a healthy team.

    (end of quote)

    I believe this is what God has been reminding me when I read it... I do admit that recently, I am not so healthy in all aspects... Though I am fully aware of them, but I guess I chose not to deal with them & chose to suppress and escape from it, just like the old me...

    Please forgive me Father... Thanks for being with me all these while...
    "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." [2 Corinthians 12:9]

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